Circles...

Feeling a little bi-polar...

 I know I'm losing it again.

I know this is the manic phase.

Before the low phase.

I'm not myself,

And I can see that.

But I can't stop it.

Soon I won't be able to.

Then I'll stoop into the depression.

Once the realization sets in.

What I did.

I won't forgive myself.

I won't trust myself.

I'll close the world out.

And cry more than not.

I know this is coming.

And yet,

I can't stop myself from making it happen.

I wish I could.

I hurt so many when I do this.

Not just myself.

And I'm sick of hurting these people all the time.

And I'm sick.

I know that.

But I'm afraid of admitting it.

I'm just letting this continue to build.

I'm just delaying the inevitable right now.

Waiting for a reason to stop this.

Waiting for a reason for anything.

I miss being wanted.

No one wants the crazy girl.

Reviews

[sea lily]

i can really identify with this. i love the open honesty of it. thankyou for sharing :)