I Hate What You Turned Me Into

being all used up.

I hate what you turned me into
Lovely disaster
Why do you still haunt my dreams,
And crowd my thoughts?
Why am I still worried if you’re ok?
Because I’m not.
I’m not ok.
I don’t know how to move on,
I don’t know how to get rid of you.
And you,
You’re doing just fine.
How can you just act like nothing‘s wrong?
Maybe it is for you.
Maybe I was the only one foolish enough to invest.
Nothing more than a stupid girl.

I hate what you turned me into,
Beautiful liar
I lie to you,
I lie to myself,
I lie to everyone,
When I say everything’s fine.
Everything’s not fine.
I’m just trying to show you up,
Trying to hurt you,
The way you hurt me.
But I’m only hurting myself.
What else am I supposed to do?
When does it all end?
When do I get to that point?
The point where I just don’t care anymore.

I hate what you turned me into,
Delightfully apathetic.
Too afraid to feel anything anymore, for anyone.
I’m not sad,
I’m not happy.
I just am.
I don’t smile anymore,
But I don’t cry either.
There are ups,
And there are downs.
This is just a straightaway,
It’s the easiest.
Anything else just doesn’t seem worth it anymore.
No one to prove me wrong,
No one to prove me right.

I hate what you turned me into
Complete Stranger.
Who is that person in the mirror?
Going about life like she has one to live.
Smiling at others, hoping they don’t really see her.
Laughing at jokes, that aren’t funny.
On the outside,
Everything’s just great.
On the inside,
Nothing’s there.
Hollowness is all I have now.
I let you eat me away on the inside,
Now I’m just a shell.
Congratulations,
You took all there was to take.

Reviews

[Wildecat]

A well written and well expressed poem, a pleasure to read your poetry.

[bob, small b. aka invs]

nicely written. there is no doubt about your feelings or situation in this poem. extremely well expressed.

[Matthew V. H.]

wow! damned powerful!

Everyone can relate to this poem at one time in their life. You captue the feeling perfectly believe it or not.

keep'em coming!