Stream of consciousness

Just sat down, wrote, didn't stop for second.

Oh, dear. Oh, dear.

I feel the end is coming here.

When broken dreams come true in ray of endless doubt I fear. 

Don’t want to be here. Don’t need to be here.

I hate and I love. 

I call but I fear no one can here.

Don’t leave me here.

I pray for you. I call for you. 

Why do you despise me when I’ve held on to you for dear life? 

Don’t leave me to die here.

I need this. I need this.

 Its bleeding. Its crying.

For you I am, and forever, will be dying. 

Bleeding words from my eyes. 

I can’t seem to see you through your lies. 

But my hate is my love.

And I need this till the end. 

Cut me I will bleed.

But the blood is not in vain. 

For you I shall cry myself to the end of the night. 

Don’t leave me.

Don’t leave me….You’re all I need.  Please. 

Abuse me or touch me in a way that you please. 

But I can’t live without this by my side. 

And I will pray to the endless night. 

Can’t help but scream.  Can’t help but scream. 

Little pieces of the mirror falling. 

 Can I not save them? Can I not catch them?

They’re falling! Their dying!

I cannot touch them. 

They’ll bleed me, they’ll hurt me. 

But I can’t help but try to look in the reflection and I see nothing but a ghost looking back at me. 

She has my heart as stone. 

I lost my heart! I lost my heart!

It is nothing anymore. 

Ashes and ashes of brokenness and I can’t release the spirit I’ve held hostage all this time. 

Don’t cry to me.

I can’t even comfort myself. 

I’ve watched myself bleed and unable to stop. 

What makes you think I can help you? 

I love you but I can’t deal with this. 

I’m reaching for the night, but nothing comes. 

A bunch of stars screaming its over its over, you’ve lost the game. 

It’s stolen, your love. 

And now you’ve got to pay the price. 

I love you but I hate feeling like this. 

Shallow and away out of touch from reality. 

 I’m living in a foolish wonder. 

Author's Note

Just an excersize where you sit down for three minutes and just write and don't stop and whatever comes into your head you write down....for me obviously the outcome was pretty morbid lol.

Reviews

[December Blaize]

This is amazing! I prefer stanzas, and I usually have a hard time reading through long poems that aren't broken up, but this captivated me and held me until the very end. It is beauty and sorrow and despair all at once... I love it!

[jennifer little]

great and wonderful job

[xSamilynnx]

ohmigosh!!!!! i love this!!!!!!! one of the best poems ive read!!!!! xD xD very good!!!!!

[Melinda Weber]

I liked this write :) I think it would have held more of a hold if it was broken up into stanzas. But great write for a 3 min showdown :)