Stay love

I was walking in darkness. I do not remember exactly where I was, but it was not important. Just important thing I was at darkness place, and I couldn't see anything. I was really scared. I never felt that before. A triable loneliness, and numbness. I just remember those: I was feeling a huge loneliness. There were no sun, no taste, no redness of wine, or flowers, no seasons. Nothing. There was just a nothing, and sure questions. "Where is my dad?", "Where I am?", "Where people?" 

I was a eighteen years old when I left my home. I've set up a new house, and create new life without my parents. I didn't want all of those, but I had to, and I did too. Do you know that what is the mean leaving earlier home, and what will I do alone? Creating new life, and to drift after something, and then fall in the love for the first time. 

Yeah, I am talking about my first love. I am writing now. Why did you do, I don't know, but I am doing this, and I'll continue.

She has a brown hair, hazel eyes, and a warm heart. I do not remember where I saw her, but I've seen in somewhere, I've loved him warm heart. I've felt it, and now I continue to feel him. Him laugher, happiness in her eyes, her lips that remind me life, never forget. 

She was my friend from the school. We didn't meet in first time. I saw her, but I didn't have any courage to talk her. I just followed her, watched him behaviours, try to catch him glance. In a time, we met, and talked about our life as a close friend. We took a call number, and we are only messaging. Passing a time, we were so close, and kept our secrets. Sure, we were gossips, and we became lovers when we spend a lot of time together. I found other half of me, I thought, because we are good friend, good lover, also nice couple. Everything was good. Everything was good for us. 

You know, when everything goes to its own way, people think that there is good in the world. I want to say that in the world there is no bad thing, no crying children, no war. Everything is good, we think; and we are pursuing our lovely life. I think so, I had a same think, and I fell in love. 

Love. I did not know anything about it until falling. It means drawing a circle, and put yourself inside this circle. I found love, and its mean. I drew a boundary for me, put myself, try to live inside it. No freedom, no crying, just there are same things that are taking a breath, and giving a breath. I showed only sign of life, but I couldn't stay of life. 

She ended this relationship when she realized those. All things of this relationship were stopped. There didn't stay anything about it. There was burned, flied, etc. by my ex-girlfriend, and so I started walking in darkness. It's not as scary as she's going to leave me, because people get used to it, and feel darknesses. Even, I know that it's hard to say, you love. I loved. 

She was going to leave me, and all of my life, building or creating fell down on my heart. I was alone.. Then, I knew a thing for this relationship, when left alone to learn what people do.

Stay love.

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Reviews

[Zyle Christian William ..]

I absolutely love the style with which this was written, whether by accident or on purpose is irrelevant! I love your voice in this piece it shows vulnerability and brokenness and I find it simply beautiful, raw, unpolished thoughts of pain and longing well communicated through an interesting voice. Nicely done! This is a true gem!

I think my favorite part is the way you, as the reader, can only read and think each line as you read it, almost as if you yourself are having the thoughts. It definitely added a shift in perspective that I did not expect to find. Again, this is an interesting piece and I did enjoy reading!