the poems i never got to read.A Poem by Sami just wanted to read a damn booki remember the fall, the thunderous 'bang' back hitting metal bones splitting, tendons snapping it didn't feel like time stopped it felt like any other fall but it wasn't in the fall; it was spring-April, to be exact i sought to take shelter under a familiar tree book in hand and Emily Dickinson on the pages i wanted to be tragic like her, i wanted to be the woman in white, the sullen girl who is so poetic, the whole world loves and fears her. i wanted to be poetry. the shock came and crashed over me as i crashed over the threshold i lay on the floor, blinking dumbly shell shocked into silence i couldn't feel pain, i just felt sick, sweat ridden, like i had the sweating sickness, the one that killed Prince Arthur all those years ago. did he feel sick like i did? i wanted to puke. i wanted to cry. i wanted to sleep. exhaustion like i'd never known before swept over my feverish body, a kind of aching tiredness that cannot be ignored i've spent most of my life making friends with slumber, but this was something different; something omnipotent, something powerful. something bigger than the sky. "don't close your eyes," my grandmother said, phone in hand, "don't fall asleep. don't go to sleep." "i've never been so tired," i wanted to say, but even forming words was a chore. my mouth was heavy. heavy like my eyelids, heavy like the men who picked me up and hauled me onto the stretcher, heavy like empty hospital rooms, sterile equipment, x-ray machines. heavy with the weight of words like "surgery" dense like the metal they cut into me flesh and bone, how fickle metal is sturdier, stronger- i'm frankenstein's monster in leggings, i'm ragdoll Sally in modern day clothes. i traded metal for metal, they had to take my piercings away, and i was naked for the first time in years. they stitched me up and put me back together again, all the king's horses and all the king's men, men in white lab coats, men with scalpels and knives. (broken { Emily, did you ever break a bone?) © 2019 SamAuthor's Note
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