Disposable

I am forever disposable 

Tossed to the side

Forgotten by those I remember well 

I thought I grew out of this with age 

Broken and dangerous bad friendships '

I was surround of a war of yelling and hurting 

My love for aiding taken against me 

I thought I was loved 

I am disposable 

Sipping vodka wine 

Harden eyes 

Toughen heart

The people I love 

Will never love me 

I am disposable 

Here to help you 

The disposable friend 

Keep you company but I'll never get close 

Not that I don't want to be close, You'll never choose me to get close with 

I am forever disposable 

Reviews

[fresnikson]

This poem reminds me of a bad time of my life, being alone, not being able to seek closure with close friends, forgotten; and being the third wheel for so long in your friend's group, not knowing that they are bad friends or 'friends'. The alcohol is a big part of it too :)
It's a beautiful poem that is simple and you can tell so much just by reading the first 4 sentences, so much between the lines.
IDK maybe I am reading into this a little bit too much :) and maybe it's because it reminds me of something so personal.

[Lydia Waldock]

You arent reading into it! you got my message!! Thanks for the comment