My best friend reminds me of my ex

My best friend reminds me of my ex

Completely different people but act far too much alike 

I find myself acting the ways in the same ways I had to with him 

The silent anger 

The push and shove of dismissiveness 

The emotional strain of just being there

He needed me to make himself better 

He didn't care if I was crying by the words he said to me 

Destroyed me too many times to rebuild from 

Took my love for aiding against me 

I didn't know how to leave 

When I spoke up I was told I was wrong 

Isolated he made me. 

Alone with no one. 

My best friend was the one to help me through it 

He shared with me a sense of joy I had not seen through friends before 

But 

He changed 

Dismissing me 

Making fun and boldly telling people my secrets 

Even when he knows not to say 

Those jokes and the silent push and shove 

Hurts 

He is just my ex wrapped up with better memories 

He is just my ex and he knows how he's acting to be him. 

Author's Note

My best guy friend means a lot to me but more and more he is starting to act like my emotionally abusive ex-boyfriend