Lonely

I was a lonely child and it still carries with me

This loneliness has become my only friend
Reliable it’s always at my side tugging at my sleeve
Had it not met me when I was young I don’t think I’d be as vivid to other people’s reality.
I’ve always felt the coldness surround my hands as I turned pages of the books loosing myself in the words wishing to be apart of their world full of laughter, friends and memories to be brightly fond of.
I am not so young anymore
Grew up alone in all the tribulations of my life never been able to have a friend stay with me.
But I’ll always have loneliness
My marriage to it can not be broken even when I’m in love.
People, memories, lovers, emotions are fleeting they come and go when your world is a glass bottom bottle.
I’ll hold my own head high and pretend I’m loved and surrounded by those who care.
The loneliest always win to be the biggest losers

Author's Note

It’s edgy and dramatic I know, but I think it’s something most people can relate too. Let me know about any mistakes wrote this on the bus!

Reviews

[Phill Oz O'fee]

Loved the wordplay Lydia and the emotional power in the write, but if you don’t mind my suggestion, to give even more strength to the structure, here is my stanza proposal:

This loneliness has become
My only friend
Reliable as always at my side
Tugging at my sleeve

Had it not met me
When I was young
I don’t think I’d be as vivid
To other people’s reality

I’ve always felt the coldness
Surround my hands
As I turned pages of the books
Losing myself in the words

Wishing to be a part of their world
Full of laughter
Friends and memories
To be brightly fond of

I am not so young anymore
Grew up alone
In all the tribulations of my life
Never been able to have a friend stay with me

But I’ll always have loneliness
My marriage to it
Cannot be broken
Even when I’m in love

People, memories, lovers, emotions
Are fleeting as they come and go
When your world
Is a glass bottom bottle

I’ll hold my own head high
And pretend I’m loved
And surrounded
By those who care

The loneliest
Always win
To be
The biggest losers

Hope this is OK ... :-)

[Lydia Waldock]

Thank you!!! Stanza is wonderful I just don’t feel comfortable with my ability to write in such!!

[Richard🖌]

Gosh, Lydia!
"This loneliness has become my only friend."
Since a chid, I have been shoved aside, starved for and deprived of love, affection, and mutual companionship; so, I can easily grasp the emotion and powerful metaphors that pour so sadly and forlornly from your pen.
The timbre of your poetic voice speaks beautifully; though, its poignancy compels the heart to break to think a 17-year-old girl experiences such heaviness in her life and soul.
The one thing I've learned from writing about my own trials and tribulations is that it's a great way to deal with them and get them off your chest; and, one can learn so very much about themselves when they read the deeper meanings contained in their own words, that often bring about wanted and needed solutions. I hope you find this is true for You, as-well.
Free Verse is a powerful form of poetry to express anything in; especially, our deepest feelings and emotions, and you've done a stellar job of doing just that, as well as striking a chord in your readers' minds, hearts, and souls.
I, too, struggle with dyslexia, but there is not one hint of dyslexia among your smoothly flowing words … way to go! : )

Excellent writing, Lydia … captivating and impacting, and this takes understanding of one's self and how to convey it to others.
Thank you for sharing You!

Hi, Lydia! 😊
My name is Richard.
I am a dedicated poet and poetry teacher who enjoys greeting and meeting new and interesting writers to the site; so, I say, "Welcome, and I hope you're enjoying reading some of the great poetry here and receiving meaningful reviews." : )
Friends are easy to make here, and fans to admire and follow your work, too. There is so very much to enjoy on the Café I know you'll relate to and learn from.
If you should ever want my help with bettering your writing skills or with any form of poetry, just gimme a tap on the shoulder.
Drop by to read some of my stuff when you get a chance … I'd appreciate that; I thrive on sharing.
Sorry for the length of this, but it was our first time getting acquainted, eh?
"Happy Holidays and A Most Wonderful New Year!" 🎶
Again, welcome to the site, and I hope you'll make this your new writing home … blessings! ⁓ RJ

[Wesley Dingler]

It's edgy, yes, but it's spot on to me. I grew up a pretty lonely child myself. I felt your line "But I'll always have loneliness". To fall back on if need be.

[Lydia Waldock]

Definitely! its always here. Thanks for your comment

[Amaya]

I definitely can relate to this. I find loneliness to be kind of complex because I think there are so many layers to it but you managed to describe it very well. Great work!

[Lydia Waldock]

Thank you very much I’m very glad you liked it!

[wordman]

loneliness is something every body deals with sooner or later in life,i enjoyed it

[Lydia Waldock]

Oh definitely everyone goes through it, I enjoy being alone and sometimes its nice to be lonely but some days not so much right. Thanks so much for the comment!

[wordman]

you`re welcome

[Planet x]

its not too dramatic , its just a good description of what you feel
I could easily relate to your words

[Lydia Waldock]

Thanks! I’m glad you could relate, your never truly alone