Manic Mind

A glimpse into the racing thoughts characteristic of many mental disorders

The universe is sickeningly disillusioned

It contorts itself to fit inside my miniscule mind

The luminescent stars bend across the massive satin sky

 clawing their way into the space that is already full

It is filled to the brim with more emotion and more knowledge

than one should ever possess

The thoughts race each other, darting about in rebellion

Inside my maniac mind is Chaos! Anarchy!

Complete lunacy takes control dominating each thought

A revolting morbidity replaces what once was innocence

My brain rambles on

unaware that it is infected, diseased, ill, afflicted

I'm sick

It's a tiny excuse for the enormous amount of matter

 that crams itself into my neurons

In every fold and crease of my brain some wild thought

runs rampant, ravaging an already vulnerable part of me

Disaster is soon to come

For I know I will explode

And the universe will have to find a different container

a new victim

To try and distort the enormity of everything

Bend and twist it so it fits

But it's just too massive, and my brain too small

The billions of connections

the billions of thoughts and emotions and sensations

It's too much, but there's always more

More

More!

MORE!

Too much of everything

And not enough left of me