Deeper

This is a poem about my anxiety. I wrote it in about 15 minutes after a really bad day.

I yell and scream at you to leave,
To go away, I don't like you.
But you don't listen, you scream back,
Louder.
I beg you to stop, I don't want to listen
My ears are bleeding, as my hands
Are pressed so tightly against them
But your words penetrate them
Through the cracks between my fingers,
That are squeezed so tightly
They have become numb.
I can't block you out
And I scream.
I scream
I beg
I cry
I
Don't know what to do.
I give up
I can't stop the voices
That tear me down just to
Build me back up with insecurities
With doubt
I drown in the sea of insecurity that
Surrounds me in every direction
I swim but I sink faster than I rise
I'm gasping for breath but I can't
Take much more of this.
I'm drowning and no one can
Save me.
I sink deeper and deeper
Its getting colder, lonelier
Deeper and deeper
I sink.

Author's Note

I would appreciate any and all constructive criticism, as well as opinions and anything else that anyone wants to say.