My Heart

My Heart

I'm lost in my head, going in circles in the disaster of my brain,

A place where my thoughts are undefined,

And I don't know if I'm living in reality or if I'm dreaming,

Confusion, delusion…why can't I make sense of this world?

I search around every twist and turn, peering around forever changing corners,

First a left and then a right, sometimes I even back track my own steps,

But the walls I live in are impossibly tall, there is no map to help me get out,

And I try to memorize, to figure out what I'm doing and where I've been.

I'm running through this maze and I still haven't found an exit from this pain,

And every time I reach a dead end I start to feel like there is no freedom, no escape,

Running into barricades, trapped in a long corridor of my life,

Searching for my soul, searching for my identity, questioning the puzzle of who I am.

Every turn gets darker in the lonely inescapable labyrinth of my memories,

How do I find the missing pieces of myself in this living, breathing, twisting journey?

Should I run, should I walk, should I stay on a straight path through the lies I have made?

All I know is I will always walk alone in the endless cul-de-sac of my heart....

   12/26/2017

Reviews

[‘Thoughts In Time..]

The mind needs to be renewed to be able to function and make sense- the heart must NEVER be in the head- the conscious dictates to the subconscious- it the subconscious doesn’t argue or reason so we need to see through the love and depth of the heart to find the soul- Time is a precious teacher use her well to benefit you- wonderful deep writing- all is not as it seems have faith 🌹

[Ghost]

Thank you so much, and I agree sometimes I need to live from the heart and give everything else a break.

[‘Thoughts In Time’🌹]

My pleasure🌹

[Weeping willow]

Wow! interesting write,very descriptive in many ways;-]

[Ghost]

Thank you so much