Repent

Surfacing the regretful thoughts of a cheat

I may preach to you about how what I did could have been worse

but I know that doesn't change how this must hurt

It's my way of finding a defence,

and I know instead I should be making amends,

but how does one change what is already done?

Its tarnished now and your trust for me is gone.

For as long as I can remember people have been full of praise-

for me, my morals and my selfless ways,

but they're wrong because I'm a liar and a cheat,

maybe that's why I can't maintain a relationship with anyone I meet?

Maybe people were only nice out of sympathy,

they knew I had nobody and they wanted me to be the best I could be

but I failed them just as I failed you;

because I promised I'd be faithful and I lied about that too.

See, I've been there and I know how it feels

so I promised myself I'd always keep it real

so in theory I've also failed myself, and I did it without anybody's help.

Now I seem to have adopted the traits of he, who broke my heart,

he let me know what it's like to fall apart,

now I don't even speak of his name,

and it hurts to think you'll look at me feeling the same.

One mistake in all of the great time spent,

has left me feeling so full of repent.

Author's Note

ignore any poor grammar