Healing Self

A warmness from my Heart.

I must first Heal myself, if I wish to heal anyone else

I must first Heal myself, before I can Heal my family

I must first Heal myself, before I can help my fellow man

I must see into myself, before I can see into another

I must feel myself, before I can expect to feel anyone else

I must see my own darkness, before I can reveal medicine to all who exist in that same darkness

I must overcome this fear of my own darkness, my own pain before I can be washed clean by Mothers sweet rain

I must look at it and see it for what it is, not for what I have made it out to be, so that I could put it away quietly with no real disdain

I must go in there, I must open that dark grungy box and sleep with it, embrace it and feel it, hold it, allow it to hold me, and truly know it as I have never known it before, only then can I open that ancient door; that one that has been there for eons, all of the Me's in all of my lifetimes have been afraid to go here, but we all need me to go there now, the time is now, and yes I will go.

I'm there, it does not feel good, but I know it, I know it so well, the shame is here, the dark is here, the disgust is here, the aloneness is here, the whispers are here, the pointing is here, the eyes are here, the sorrow and pain are here, the separation is here, the noise is here, the hiding is here, the scared little me is here, the rolling in a ball to not be seen is here, the shouting is here, the fear is here, and I, I embrace it all, it is a part of me, I am this, I am all this, I stand naked and alone and I cry out, I am this. I am this.  And now what, now what, I open my Heart, I stand Naked, with my eyes open, with my mind quiet and still and I say, and all of us the thousand me's that have all been this, we all ask together, now what?  NOW WHAT?

I close my eyes, I swallow my tears, I breathe deep, we are here.

And NOW WHAT?

Compassion, Compassion, Compassion, Compassion, Compassion, Compassion, Compassion, Compassion

Heal Me, Heal Me, Heal Me, Heal Us, Heal Us, Heal Us

I Trust, I Trust, I Trust, I Trust,  We Trust, We Trust, We Trust

Heal Us, Heal Us, Heal Us, Heal Us

Stillness,  there is only Stillness

If I want to Hear God,  I must Hear Myself

If I want to Hear God,  I must Hear Myself

If I want to Know God, I must Know Myself

If I want to Know God, I must Know Myself

If I want to See God, I must See Myself

If I want to See God, I must See Myself

I think I hear and see Myself, at least beginning too

That has got to be a ways down the path of knowing Myself

So hey God, I know you're in there, I'll be seeing you Soon

And then I will be reflecting You out, for all my friends to See

Reflecting you out for all my Friends to See

Reflecting you out for all my Friends to See

Good talk, I think I'm being Healed, at last I think I'm being Healed

Once I'm there, I'll be coming to see what I can Do

We are all on this path, sometimes we just need a little light shown so we can make our way past the bumps along the Way 

No matter what, the paths are all leading to the same place 

Some have a few more twists and turns and some miss the signs 

along the way, but in the end we are all going to the exact same place

It's like Rumi said  "Out beyond ideas of wrong doing and right doing there is a field. I'll meet you there.  

That's where we are all going to meet once we finally get it, that we need to live without judgement.

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