All the things I can never say to you ...

Real talk.

All the things I could never say to your face …

1.
Your skin is lost brail
hidden behind smoke
created by forest fires
camouflaged with laugh lines
while I become a blind man
seeking redemption
inside the church that could be
your towering arms.

2.
I have never yearned
for anything impossible
until I met you.

3.
How do you transform
from mystery to enemy
behind a full moon’s stage?
I know humans love sick,
love anti light and beastly,
yet I don’t know if I should
of even shed this pulse
for someone who doesn’t
like to witness fresh blood.

4.
There are no tombstones for
the cataclysm of dying soldiers
throughout battlefields of burning lovers -
there is a certain tint of loneliness
in the sunset only real lovers can see.

5.
You wear your silence like bullets
flying through my chest, but I know
I pulled the f*****g trigger.

6.
A brash exterior cannot hide
the way you steal mere glimpses
of me when you think
I am not looking,
and vice versa.

7.
I am not a super hero.
Maybe you need saving from somebody
whose willing to die with your
kryptonite heart. I am
already fallen, never a villain
but scorched with woeful laments.

8.
 I understand my futile efforts are like
a passing train and the wind passing is
a silent sigh of relief. The expired token
remaining in my heavy chest of strangers
who passed by have forced me to lie about
every train’s departure time
so this time you cannot follow me.

9.
Enough of the cryptic verses though, right?
These canvases are sculpted
from a lost soul. I always believed
you were an astronomer searching for
the secrets inside my supernova, yet
I understand now you just wanted
a night sky to paint differently.
I will never craft myself
from the hands of a broken artist.

10.
How do you seek revenge
on someone you want to believe has no soul?

11.
Miles apart and you still haunt me.

12.
In the last of the lashes,
inside the dry burn of a crescent
scented dawn, between the glimpses
of morning light and midnight’s lone star,
I always wait for you.