Life As Is

you battle hard,

treading the line

between me time

and they time,

creating art

and living life,

making meaning

and scratching out

an existence

you change three sets of diapers

and try to review works by others

you buy nine cans of Monster

and try to prevent the leaking can

from leaving a piss stain on

your work shorts

you try and put yourself

before others while trying

to put others before yourself

you have little regard for others

when you have much regard for others

you are a creature ruled by

the dichotomy, the divide that

splits you into the negative

beast that you self-propagate

you obsess over the darkness,

you get consumed by the darkness

and it's only variable in

a massive system of equations,

a system called life as is

other variables include:

self-image, goal-setting,

goal accomplishment,

setting wrongs right,

parenting woes,

making friends,

keeping friends,

marriage woes,

career woes,

addiction woes

this adult system of equations

can't be solved by brute force

alone but we can't solve it by

any other means

wits cans only get one so far

and the same goes with luck

and a combination of brute

force, wits and luck

the row operations one undertakes

to crack this systems are really

infinite in number to the puny

human mind

and with the many regrets

a life can have and how

many horror stories we

hear about routinely,

the system, if cracked

or uncracked, most likely

has no solution

no answer, no point,

just a s**t ton of

math homework that

means nothing when you

finish it and score poorly

on the test later

and, in the end,

the system is just a

degenerate subcase 

that can never be solved

a subcase to the ideal

adult system of equations,

one with a solution,

one with an answer that

makes so much sense

and that is easy to reach

with the simplest number

of row operations possible

but the battles we fight daily

make that ideal impossible

to have because we are

degenerate cases after all,

chaff for the fire if one

is biblically-inclined

the math may never work out

and the positive ones may

choose to keep working at it

as an anti-homage to both

Camus and Sartre,

and some may give it up

completely or try it

again later

we are free agents after all,

so let the battle continue

until we all permanently

cast off our coils

Reviews

[Pryde Foltz]

you are a creature ruled by
the dichotomy, the divide that
splits you into the negative
beast that you self-propagate

you obsess over the darkness,
you get consumed by the darkness

A masterful philosophical write, Kenneth. One I can highly relate with.

[Kenneth The Poet]

Thank you.

[Lyn Anderson]

This is a very smart observational piece. The thing I used to remember about math was wondering why on earth a person who is not going in to be a doctor, engineer, or scientist, needs to know algebra. I have yet to use it in my daily life ... Still, we do our thing until we shuffle off. Nice write.

[Kenneth The Poet]

Thank you.

[AprilRN1210]

brute force, wits, and luck... now that's just not fair.. dog ate my test... and luck?.. forget about it.. nope... nice REAL, RAW, write.. thumbs up from the "strange" peanut gallery...

[Kenneth The Poet]

Thank you.

[Sami Khalil]

You wonderfully lay it all out as is. The beginning of the battles(inner and outer), the cause of the positive and negative, the generation and degeneration of the possible and impossible. There is a wake up call her to heed and change...Excellent...:)..............

[Kenneth The Poet]

Thank you.