![]() I won't let them win.A Poem by Glenna.![]() Every one of my friends who have read this wanted to punch a wall afterwards... I'm not sure if that's good or bad.![]() I can feel them. Their eyes burrowing through the top of my skull. I keep my head bent and focus on the plate in front of me. It doesn't keep me from knowing what they are all thinking. Should she be eating that? That's an awfully big serving... Does she know the consequences of that extra bite? I do. That's why I leave my spoon on the side of my plate. Untouched. I refuse to let them win. Let's see her gain another pound! Steal her weight chart and make copies! She updates every night! I scan the lunch table. They're talking. Laughing. Every single one of them. I slide my hand inconspicuously down my side. I grimace at the touch and do the math in my head... I had that cheese stick for dinner last night, feigning a stomachache. GOD D****T. WHY?! Why, after all this hard work, Why would I do something so damaging!? I want to let the tears I have held in for the last three months leak down my face. But I won't allow it. No. Not now. Not in public. Not in front of them. If only crying could burn calories... But it doesn't. Crying is weak. Useless. Revealing. I want to lift that spoon from the table and shovel food into my mouth. NO. The calories. Think about the calories. I dig my nails into the top of my hand as if scolding another person. This is what happens when you want something so bad for yourself. How DARE you try to sabotage me! I scan down the table one more time, locking eyes with my number one starer. My best friend. How many times will she give me that damned look today? She glares at my virgin plate. Then up at me again. Her eyebrow c***s. There's a change in her eyes. It can't be... pain? What does she want me to do? Why is my 'meal' making her tear up? Ahh. She must think it is too much also. I knew I was making the right decision! It's okay I want to tell her. I'm not going to eat it. I attempt a smile and get up from the table. Her eyes follow. I throw the plate into the trash and walk away. Tears tumble down her face. I've made her proud.
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Added on September 17, 2009Last Updated on September 17, 2009 Author![]() Glenna.WAAbout"When I walk into a well-stocked bookstore, I start to drool." Well. I'm Glenna, and I have been told probably three thousand and twenty-nine times that it is an old lady name. My response: Wait si.. more..Writing
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