Sexual Prison

Sexual Prison

A Poem by Blunt--Instrument
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Complicated relationships with a pain flavor

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The cuts were deep  
Took awhile to scab over  
I didn't have enough pain  
Picked those scabs until they bled  
Only when raw did I feel better  
Moving through my day  
Irritation has a way  
Reminds you of your prison
I inflicted pain on her  
I hurt her emotionally  
Didn't think I was capable of that
I didn't think she cared enough about me  
Where I would have that kind of power  
Things are better now  
Talked through it  
Still I'm uncomfortable with peace  
I need conflict  
Always needing to solve  
Getting back to equal positions  
It only lasts so long  
I poke the bear  
What's wrong with me I ask myself  
It's prison  
You fucked up  
No parole  
 

© 2022 Blunt--Instrument


Author's Note

Blunt--Instrument
Gouache Painting by Me

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First read of your and I do like it...and more importantly I get it...Life can be so interesting...right...
You end up finally getting it together for a real conversation and things get better...for awhile...but as you say you like conflict and so you poke the bear...
Many like to have conflict in a relationship..for a variety of reasons...perhaps the make -up is better than
the rest of the time...who knows..
Your poem ade me think...and that is always good.
Really like your painting.
I too am an artist... watercolour...
Lisa, now in Spain

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blunt--Instrument

2 Years Ago

Hi Lisa
Thank you for your comment. It’s a pleasure to have such an intelligent response t.. read more
Lisasview

2 Years Ago

You are so welcome. And, thank you so much for your comments...I appreciate them.
Not sure if.. read more



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As an impressive piece of writing as I've ever read, introspective and raw!
You've dissected your demon; you know how to lick him ...
So, What are you gonna do about it? ... Now, that would be a helluva read, huh?
JD

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blunt--Instrument

2 Years Ago

Glad you enjoyed this write JD.
The thing is, it's just a continuance situation.
We ke.. read more
I have written before about the discomfort with peace and the need for conflict. These things seem to afflict a lot of people. I think peace in some part of the mind is equated with stillness, which is equated with death. For some, the sound of the guns is preferable to the silence of death.

Posted 2 Years Ago


Blunt--Instrument

2 Years Ago

I need conflict to get to calm. Some relationships breed discomfort as well as love. I go with the .. read more
Some just thrive on drama...have to have the conflict to survive...peaceful is an uncomfortable word.
I really like this piece...and it reminds me of a couple times when I thought I had not the power to inflict pain because I did not feel the other person cared enough to hurt.
What little we know about love sometimes.

j.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blunt--Instrument

2 Years Ago

That’s a really good assessment of my poem and your situation. Until I inflicted pain I didn’t .. read more
Eh, it's life. It's not perfect but it's real. It happens to us all. It sounds positively normal to me. I have a theory myself that everyone is insane but there are varying degrees of insanity and whole other levels. The trick in relationships, even friendships is finding the people of your own level and degree with whom you may tolerate their eccentricities as they tolerate yours. It's a balancing act of sorts or perhaps a flying trapeze act where you throw each other and pray the other will care enough to catch you and hope to heaven there's a net underneath if they don't. I enjoy your writing, F.

Posted 2 Years Ago


Blunt--Instrument

2 Years Ago

All good responses to this intricate write for me. I covered a lot of ground and the comments here .. read more
First read of your and I do like it...and more importantly I get it...Life can be so interesting...right...
You end up finally getting it together for a real conversation and things get better...for awhile...but as you say you like conflict and so you poke the bear...
Many like to have conflict in a relationship..for a variety of reasons...perhaps the make -up is better than
the rest of the time...who knows..
Your poem ade me think...and that is always good.
Really like your painting.
I too am an artist... watercolour...
Lisa, now in Spain

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blunt--Instrument

2 Years Ago

Hi Lisa
Thank you for your comment. It’s a pleasure to have such an intelligent response t.. read more
Lisasview

2 Years Ago

You are so welcome. And, thank you so much for your comments...I appreciate them.
Not sure if.. read more

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Added on September 15, 2022
Last Updated on September 16, 2022
Tags: Relationships, pain, emotional, prison, conflict, bdsm

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11 years writing poetry All genres from observation to mature themes I specialize in narrative writing often involving humor, desire and slice of life situations.... Abstract artist, all paintings.. more..

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