I'm Not The Only One

I know I'm not the only one there are others who can't stand to live another day, but choose to keep going not because of hope that one day it will all get better, but because of the loved ones we'd leave hurt, so we'll go through hell for as long as we can dealing with all the pain we carry just so you won't feel any, understand that some of us fall from time to time but know we fought for as long as we could, the hatred toward ourselves just becomes overwhelming, we didn't start out that way it was years of being put down by family, friends, or strangers our self-esteem crashed down, every negative thing we were told we found truth in it and with every truth we found the more our hatred grew most of us found these truths in a mirror and once we found one it was hard to stop looking for more, it all became clear every little thing that was said was true, and the moment we knew the truth is when we would start tearing ourselves apart even more, everyday was hell, death was our escape route blocked by several others, so we wait until they all drift off and when they do we'll all fall through finally free from this world.