make it right

my mouth opens and words come out,

I regret it immediately and begin to doubt.  

Should I have spoke or just stayed silent?

letting my dark thoughts get violent.

I won’t to open up but I don’t now what to say,

So I stay quiet for another day.

It feels like I haven’t spoken in years,

I can’t move until my mind clears.

Seeing you wiped all my thoughts aside,

I could finally speak with pride. 

You brought life to a dying soul, 

You loved me for me, a hole. 

You couldn’t see through the darkness, 

You couldn’t see the mess. 

Yet the blinded step you took,

And my life you forever shook. 

I messed it all up with just one text,

Then I cried and didn’t know what to do next. 

I gave up so quickly, I didn’t even fight,

What can I do to make this all right?