I Grieve

I Grieve

A Poem by gabiaimee
"

For myself

"
Last week I cried over a cookie.
It took me all day to get the batter right
and when it came out of the oven it was black.
I can't even bake a cookie right, so I cried. 

Yesterday I relapsed over water.
I dropped the uneven liquid weight 
and had to mop up the hardwood floors.
I can't even carry a glass of water, so I relapsed.

Last night I panicked over a phone call.
A telemarketer rang but when I picked up
no words came out of my throat, only unease.
I can't even talk on the phone, so I panicked.

This morning I lost hope over makeup.
My unsteady hands couldn't match 
and eyeliner wasn't neat enough so I wiped it off.
I can't even do makeup right, so I lost hope.

Tonight I grieve for my old self.
Now I see that mundane, everyday tasks
are obstacle courses that I can't complete anymore.
I am not myself anymore, so I grieve.

© 2014 gabiaimee


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You are describing someone that may have an OCD or maybe a perfectionist. I find the word " relapse " quite interesting and well place. But I relapse when things doesn't seems to fit right and goes the way I expect it to be...

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nice lines.....thanks for sharing

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Chillingly beautiful, to write is to live a thousand lives, thank you, what a great visionary way of doing things, getting things done, contemplating the earth

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

excellent work. Kind of sad...I hope all is well

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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Added on November 20, 2014
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