I Should've OD

I should've let myself go years ago

Everything I touch and eventually say is a set of mirrors 

Reflecting my true colors that I am trying to wash away

I use stain removers to clean up my mess 

I use water to wash away my acts of sin

I use alcohol to drink and suffocate on another level

I'm just yearning for someone to accept me for me and the hurtful ways I have committed to 

I should've OD years ago.

Sorry.