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This poem was inspired by a woman I loved...and a woman I lost.

You and I weren’t a tragic love story because our love couldn’t fit in a book

I wish I would’ve taken a second look at the way things turned out but at the end

I thought I could turn around and drive us back into the right direction

But you were stubborn and I was drenched in things from my past, things that made us crash, things that broke us and didn’t make us last.

“Don’t be rash” you said the night I drove my car through our home and watched as flames littered everything I’ve ever known.

And even when you pulled me out I had more broken bones then you could count.

And that’s the night you turned around and walked out the door because you couldn’t do this anymore.

And I understand why you left.

I understand why you left but I can’t sleep at night because regret has swallowed me whole and left me buried alone in our back yard where we used to light candles and listen to music.

 

Useless, these memories of us are useless because I’m tangled in a web of doubt

While you’re out sleeping around town without a doubt

In your mind

Yet I’m acting like I’m fine when really I’m wondering if her smile is nicer than mine

Or if she looks at you while you sleep just to take you all in

Or if when you bite her lip in the car if that makes her want to take you home and sin

Where do I begin when I’m living in an ending, a house that I burnt down?

 

I’ll give you this crown, I’ll even bow down because I don’t need to be a king when you’re the queen

All I need is you around and if you’d just come back I’d build this house back up from the ground

Darling I’ve learned my lesson, I was blessed with your presence and I know now that what we had was not something to second guess.

 

And although you were just a flash of light in the night, you brightened my life

And although it was only a second, you were a forced not to be reckoned with

Because you changed me, and for that I thank you, for that I owe you

And for that I will show you that when you’re ready to come back to me

My god, darling, I promise I will love you endlessly.