I have had Enough

Journal #1

            I am in distress.

            I am called to be strong. Leader, father, husband, and teacher- such appearances are mere altruistic features. Little do they know of the war raging in my mind. All of this is just one big lie.

            Is one virtuous if the inner man cannot conform to outward deeds? Is one virtuous when guilt fills the soul of man for no seemingly good reason? A hurricane of questions barrages my soul day and night; I am like a prisoner held captive awaiting a slow and certain death.

            And yet, there is hope.

            Emotions do not speak for me. For Christ has answered all those condemning accusations that lie within my soul.

            I should be in peace.

Reviews

[Mk.t.g]

Little do they know of the war raging in my mind.

These lines hit hard. People indeed do not know the situation or feelings of your heart, but they continue to tell you off. Such strong words, Ethan Paz. Recently came across your writing, I absolutely admire it

[Red Brick Keshner]

So relatable Ethan! Peace to you. Shalom.