~to sing the psalm that screamed

~in earnest thanks to my precious friends who have gently and endlessly supported me...much love xo

Hid my face,               held my breath

   lost my head trying to fit in

world spinning round sideways,

   left me whirling behind collapsed walls

falling in confused puddles expectations,

     twirled in discontentment's regrets of defeat

   sobering intoxication of anticipation's rhythm 

set me free to be me once again,

     to sing the psalm that screamed...

"looking to you for the answers I need,"

    making sense of tilting time's senses

         that rhymed with enchantment    

Author's Note

Reviews

[AprilRN1210]

I can relate on so many levels.... I always hide when dealing with pain... everyone leans on me.... yet, when I am hurting or in turmoil I stubbornly think I can handle it on my own.. uncomfortable to reach out to friends... holding things in... not letting everyone know what is going on.. putting the smile on my face when all I want to do is cry.... getting lost in my head.. doubts creep in... fear takes hold.. the walls that I have built up look so much bigger and prison more cold and lonely... feeling defeated before I have begun to fight... then the fighter in me reaches deep and finds the strength and the resolve to fight back digging myself out of the hole that I helped put myself there.. jeez... ma'am... such an honest write.. that has me loving this song accompanying your beautiful words... you always blow me away...

[Frieda P]

God you're mirroring my every thought, are you in my head, scary! Thanks is never enough for your insightful reviews.....you're amazing.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

You two have much in common but deal with things differently. Good to see such support though here in the cafe, Still can't get that f***ing waitress' attention to order the coffee!

[AprilRN1210]

I could say you are in mine... we are just too much alike ma'am... not a bad thing.. I think you are pretty damn awesome.. but agree inside my head is a scary place to be... thank you... :)

[Frieda P]

Ha now we have John sandwiched, what to do ;) ha Yep like minds, how is it possible he messed up twice lol

[AprilRN1210]

she is drunk on Frieda's koolaid flirting with the dirty bird.. can't blame her... hey!! not a mess up.. had to make things interesting:P

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Never mind the F***ing sandwich will someone ask that waitress to get me coffee!

[AprilRN1210]

you wanted it bad enough you would go get it your dang self, so nah!! and... not only that... you would bring me and sunshine here one... :P

[Frieda P]

Now you have me worried John lol

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Ok so I lied; I would settle for the sandwich and a glass of that Koolaid you two get high on lol!

[Frieda P]

I knew you were just joshin' haha

[AprilRN1210]

mmmhmmmm. thought so... smart man...

[redflutterby]

I see youve found a bit of a muse in Beth Hart...incredibly powerful performer isnt she? x

Friendship is so important in those times where youre coming undone. To have one true friend is wonderful but to have many is a blessing. Not everyone does. If we treat them right and with honest intent they will always be there. But no one has to tell you that because despite youre own pain you always reach out to others either personally or in your poetry. Many are greatful to have your support..

100 acts of kindness...x

[Sophy Freebirds]

"Set me free to be free once again"- i spoke to me in all too levels.I don't know when i will set myself free.I am always stuck in my studies and WC and writing that i hardly pay attention to anything else around.I don't care for the ones who don't accept me for who i am! Branding me nerd.But really reading your this poem made me crave for someone on whose shoulder i can weep and share my TILTED ideas to someone who will encourage me .. ★ sigh★ don't think its ever gonna happen.. lovely as ever Freida ;)

~Sophy

[kublakhan27]

You have brought a smile to my face with this one Mrs.R...no doubt you realize that I relate to this one, mainly for all the reasons that April mentioned...as always, I'm stumped in trying to single out specific parts that resonated more than others...the title drew me in and intrigued me right away, which it always does...you and my other friends represent collapsed walls for me, though I can still never seem to stop whirling...nonetheless you always have 'the answers that I need' to at least regain my equilibrium for a time...the cycle never really ends, but that goes for all of us...but those endless cycles of defeat will always be countered by equally endless cycles of support, and assurances that you will never be defeated...you've fought many a battle in your life and you always come out on top...there are still snatches of despondency in this piece but the tone is uplifting...as a friend, I am truly moved and humbled by this piece...you know you mean the world to us, and you'll never be lacking for shoulders to lean on...together we'll all make sense of those tilted senses ;) xo

[John Alexander McFadyen]

This is Frieda all over. Passionate pathos in layers of metaphors that rip at your soul.

[Frieda P]

Going to have to change up my MO....don't like being predictable. :) Thanks John.

[Patricia Wedel]

dear Frieda... adore the last two lines...
"making sense of tilting time's that
rhymed with enchantment".
Your brush strokes have painted a
poem of appreciation and love.
truly... Pat

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Pat, was in a dark place yesterday, friends made it better, muchly appreciate you.

[Patricia Wedel]

I love to be an instrument of G-d's peace.
hugs... Pat

[Lyn Anderson]

Yep, if we want to live, we need to lean on the people we love and who love us, and move around, if not past, the things that haunt us.

[Frieda P]

That's always been a tough one for me, people tend to lean on me...if it'll get rid of those ghosts out of my damn closet, I better try harder. Thanks KL...

[Lyn Anderson]

Yes, that's why we are the Pack Mules of the undead, remember?:)

[Frieda P]

I know, hard for a mule to change its color though, stubborn runts :)