Perfidious Testament

~ a rant on 'trust'

a dependable friend is a precious commodity

your perfidious words slayed my faith

testimony can be found written on the walls

should have known you were radioactive

by your past nefarious, grievous verbosity 

you corrupted every sentiment set forward

aspersions cast upon treasured love of words 

a bitter fire merely lit for public consumption

annihilation set upon your pithy foolishness

hard pill to swallow at the credence table

even the devil choked on your pretend tidbits

swallowed in agony on your lying misery 

keep your triple decked psycho to yourself

i may be broken but these cracks are uniquely mine

it was always about sheer joy of shared poetry

the lunatic in your head took a giant leap

landed in my cup of realistic doubt

bitter taste took a dive in my elixir

yet another painful lesson ingested

your drew your sniveling sword unjustly

then cowered amongst those you spewed upon

little do they know the wickedness of your ways

far be it for me to come to rescue any survivors

who'd listen to the likes of your grotesque tongue

put your big boy pants on, you fight like a girl...

who the F**K do you think you are? 

Author's Note

Reviews

[redflutterby]

Holy cow....let me take a few steps back so I dont catch any shrapnel from this explosive rant. Eeek....

Okay... we all know that relationships are never perfect. We may hurt another or they hurt us. When that happens time and space are needed to cool off. Then a sincere apology along with self responsibility is required. But even more important is an expressed intent not to break the trust again. I think the first two things come easy to people...because it gets them what they want. Its the third thing that many fail on. And often times its because they were only thinking of themselves and their needs in that apology and responsibility area. They said whatever they had to to fix things without thought to the behaviour that led to the trust issue in the first place. If the three steps aren't sincere and aren't applied fully the relationship is bound to fail. We live and we learn...or we choose a constant state of denial and misplaced blame. x

[Frieda P]

Never expecting perfection, just truth, compassion, and perhaps a bit of integrity...thanks muchly for your thoughts Red. x

[ღCloveღ]

Wow is all I can say. I could feel pure anger spewing from your words.

[Frieda P]

Thanks Owlgirl, had to get it out of my system....

[Patricia]

OH YEAH!!!!!!! Now that's how it's done! I just posted a poem a little like this as well LOL Boy o boy I wish I could show this one around!!!!! You should blog this on google if you have an account cuz my writer friends would love this and everything else you write. This is bold yet smooth, intelligent, and every line emotes. I know this feeling all to well and to express it is not always easy without sounding crazy but this is passionately well done and I loved the lines "hard pill to swallow at the credence table" and " I may be broken but these cracks are uniquely mine" Broken trust..... that is the worst. Excellent work!

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Pat, why aren't your writer friends on the cafe, invite them in will ya?....Grazie mille!

[Patricia]

I have invited them and they said they would check it out but they are worried about copyright issues that are secure in a blog but not on sites like this. I just share the ones I have copyrighted so far and I am not worried about that anyway. No one wants my work LOL :D

[Mark]

Another one or the same one? If it's a new psycho I have to marvel at the continued blowing of excrement from life hitting fan you seem to endure.

[Frieda P]

You know i'll never tell Mark, nice to see you round again, tis life, it is what it is....

[Mark]

I didn't go anywhere you quit talking to me. :P

[kublakhan27]

I'm not sure if I know the whole story behind this so I'll just focus on the poem...it's clearly the angriest thing from you that I've ever read, and even though you dub it a rant, you are not capable of producing what I would dub a rant, you're too masterful a writer. Every time you put a pen to paper, brilliance comes out...that is the common denominator of all your work. There is enough imaginative might and bite in this piece to make a lot of writers want to throw away their pens. I was worried about you before I wrote this, now I'm dreading the potential of what may be going on. The sheer joy of shared poetry has clearly been obliterated, but the bond you create with your readers - especially this one - is indestructible. As always, you make every line count...I've noticed that people rarely quote specific lines in your work, and it's because the cohesiveness of every poem is air-tight. Yes the cracks may be uniquely yours, but there is a crack in everything...and everyone...a million such compositions will never kill the light that I know is in you...xo

[Frieda P]

Be still my heart Benji...you slay me with your reviews, I'm render'd speechless my sweet friend. xo

[kublakhan27]

:) Hugs...xo

[s y e]

Holy sheeeit, who peed in my mummy's coffee!? Jeez Loouise. This is powerful and just about blew me to Jersey.

Trust is such an important factor of a friendship or relationship. Once it's broken that's kind of it, you can't trust that person the same but sometimes we can forgive but we don't forget. This really packed a punch and it's something that is so relatable.

I would love to send this to someone... You know who ;-)

Red HOT stilettos & all that jazz..........xoxo

[Frieda P]

Oh you could tell I was peev'd? Ha...it's all good noodlebug. ;) Yes, I know. xo

[s y e]

Oh I could tell alright, you're not exactly subtle. ;-) xo

[Frieda P]

Ha and I was holding back Lol ;P

[s y e]

I know that also. ;-) I am your daughter, not stupid you know. I know you............x

[Frieda P]

Geez can't get anything past you.................

[s y e]

That's what happen when you got kiddiwinkles.... just sayin'

[AYVID N]

Wow! I would not like to be on the wrong side of Frieda when she is in this mood. :)
But seriously, a very effective and very articulate piece on the angst and anger of discovering we were back-stabbed.

Awesome lines....

"testimony can be found written on the walls
should have known you were radioactive
by your past nefarious, grievous verbosity
you corrupted every sentiment set forward
aspersions cast upon treasured love of words"


"i may be broken but these cracks are uniquely mine"

Betrayal and disloyal friends should be condemned to be forgotten. Bravo!

[Frieda P]

*laughing* here, I had to pen it so I could get it out of my system, it's all good now, thanks Divya!

[AYVID N]

Penning it always helps. Great to know all is well. You are welcome!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i have found unfortunately Frieda...in my life that once trust is broken, all the apologies and promises thereafter seem empty and hard to believe...

this is really packs a wallop of angst and i would not want to be the subject of this poem--wow.
rant on...

we can be so hurt by someone like this..but eventually we not only rebound, but become stronger and more self-sufficient.

ps

love that word "perfidious" by the way.

[Frieda P]

Same here, I have trust issues as it is, so stab me once, and you're on a list, try it twice, you're about good as forgotten, and I'm not talking about petty stuff, I think everybody lies to save their own skin. Thanks jacob.

[Deuces]

Damn. "even the devil choked on your pretend tidbits."
I, for one am extremely bitter when my time is wasted and/or someone who claims to be something, winds up being a fraud. I loved this for its raw energy. I believe that this was like disappointment's exorcism. And I simply loved the last two lines. Those big boy pants sure come in handy.

You know I'm a fan of your darker stuff. For someone who's almost numb to betrayal, I get it.

[Frieda P]

Ha jazz'd you enjoyed the devils take....thanks G!

[icelandicblue]

There are too many masks for people in the real and virtual world. I felt the sting of these words and the betrayal is palpable. Perfidy is second nature to some who so believe their own lies they simply become their truth. There are minefields everywhere we step it seems triple dipped in sedition. You do have a way with words and these create a tight noose for the offender. Of course when people like this are unmasked they usually run away. Sometimes I think I am too raw and open with my emotions but then again that is who I am today...hopefully tomorrow I will be a calmer and more serene self. One thing about you Frieda that I adore is that you pull no punches and do not suffer fools. We both know time is too short for such nonsense.

[Frieda P]

Hear hear Anne, I think I like your review better than my poem. ;) Grazie mille, and yes, way too short for such nonsense, I second that...

[Vidya Bacchus]

Oh dear someone is spewing venom wow chica wouldn't want to be the one who pissed you off.We can be so shocked and hurt and angry to realize that the people who call themselves our friends and we think have our back are the ones plotting against us.

[Frieda P]

Sometimes you just gotta get it out of your system, thanks muchly Vidya....

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are damn right Freida.Let them have it :)

[Frieda P]

I lost two friend in under two weeks, so this 'stuff' hardly seems important in retrospect.....!

[Vidya Bacchus]

I am sorry hunny.Yes they are not worth a second thought :)

[Frieda P]

Thanks hon, one was my neighbor, she was only 35, and died in childbirth, so sad, she leaves a wee daughter and hubby behind...

[Vidya Bacchus]

That is so sad ,and she was so young.I wonder why sometimes but I get no answers.There are those who treat their life like a burden and don't appreciate it and the one's who do have such a short time here.

[Frieda P]

Sigh, I know, am clueless, it's fruitless to try and figure out life and/or death I suppose.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Yes I guess it is.Have a good weekend chica :)

[Frieda P]

Thanks muchly, you too pazzo. :)