Apprehension's Rhyme

Apprehension, tucked in heart's intuition

    love grows old and insignificant

      once upon a time there

          was felicitous anticipation

This plight haunts my memory's spirit

   captured within guilt's sunlight

    windows upon my soul,

         now darkly tinged contemplation

 Pensive thoughts rain hit or miss through

                   frosted reflector's windowpain

         sad cricket sounds remind me of an old rhythm

              when  poetry still rhymed ~

Winds blow by, arresting breath

    as growing older fades star's night

      wise man once told me, 

believe in

           the angels of your own fateful heart

We used to dance in well versed harmony

         bluebirds never sang of stormy endings

              and there was no such thing

                       as 'once upon a' in time

Author's Note

Reviews

[Tai Ryens]

Never such a thing as once upon a time.. Telling the sad tale of a love that's kickstarted and withered far too many times to count, enhanced by your wooing diction. I liked this, it speaks of a memory uniquely, in a way I can't pinpoint but still gets to me.

[Frieda P]

Hmm unfortunately all too true, 'wooing diction' I love that Tai, thanks so much, your thoughts are always muchly appreciated.

[kublakhan27]

Not much left to say in light of what everyone else has already said Mrs.R...the ending is perfect, the emotion is palpable, and it just speaks my language from start to finish...you describe my plights better than I do on many an occasion, and you did it with this one too :) xo

[Frieda P]

Jazz'd Benji, we speak the same language on most days. Grazie mille my friend ;-) xo

[kublakhan27]

We do indeed my love ;) xo

[Frieda P]

ha mine mostly cynical and sarcastic ;-P x

[kublakhan27]

And mine isn't??? ;) xo

[Frieda P]

I think you have a ways to go to catch up to me grasshopper. ;-)

[kublakhan27]

Well maybe sour and bitter apply more to me...same difference ;P x

[kublakhan27]

Haha Are you sure about that? I've had a LOT to say in recent days, and will have a lot more to say when ten people review a poem I've been working on for a week ;P x

[kublakhan27]

And it'll probably take a week just to get those ten...

[Frieda P]

Awh hon, you're having a very bad, horrible, no good day I see....xo

[kublakhan27]

It's okay love :) Once I get my poetic thoughts in order I'll be alright...xo

[jacob erin-cilberto]

the older we get the wiser we get and we become much more apprehensive about that rose colored glass
love, because we have seen the glass shattered too many times..

and rhymes just give timelines for what was but isn't anymore.

[Frieda P]

There has to be something to this getting older jazz, wiser, perhaps, one can only hope in matters of the heart, thanks for your thoughts jacob.

[?????????????????????..]

Beautiful! The line "bluebirds never sang of stormy endings" really struck me, the whole piece has some great imagery, but this line in particular really resonated with me and stuck with me well after reading! Again, overall this is a lovely poem!

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Nathaniel, thrilled you enjoyed!

[Lyn Anderson]

I just love this poem. It is the perfect blend of your simple and flowery -- great job.

[Frieda P]

Ooh I almost miss'd out on this one, thanks so much K.

[redflutterby]

Theres a lot of truth in this...the older we get the more jaded and apprehensive we become regarding life and people. Things were simpler once...friendship was as well. Seems that everything is a game...life ... relationships... jobs. It feels like youre sucked up in some vortex where your head pounds and your stomach heaves. A nice quiet island with margaritas might at least make it bearable. Sigh...

[Frieda P]

Whoa, and I thought I was the voice of doom....thanks hon that made me feel so much better. ;-)

[redflutterby]

My negativity makes you feel better...ha...the worlds definetly going to end now!! x

[Mark]

There is a feeling of pent up fear. Hidden away from the world and worrying about belief. and fairy tales.

[Frieda P]

They shouldn't tell us fairy tales do come true when we're young and impressionable little girls so...thanks Mark.

[redzone]

A few lairs to this poem I think.. why would we want to go back(home) if that home is painful and pain filled, even if only to correct mistakes???

Then again, why can we not love again even more deeply if we have learned, become better people in the process... falling in love is always tricky, filled with pits (some with slithering snakes) and heart breaks... but each time is "new" and holds the potential for great happiness...

Its ironic, we love our fairytales that usually start out "once upon..." and we want them to be real but how often do we turn away from what could actually be real, a relationship/love that may or may not last "forever after", but apprehension is there always isn't it

I too liked your ending, and your beginning.. guess you could say I am wowed by the whole poem.. just a few things that emerged in my mind as I read.. and unlike Joplin, I have given up on love or as you said it's "darkly tinged" .... ~~redzone

[Frieda P]

Don't look at me curt, apparently I have none of the answers, or no good ones that make any sense anywho....thanks so much, always enjoy your thoughts dear man. xo

[Sami Khalil]

Once upon a time and a love when things were magical and angelic with the innocence of laughter and serenading melodies before all the storms on the horizon were brewing and which came with the flood of emotions changing our reality ...I'm for spiritual love which connects souls(everlasting) and not just the physical love which connects the bodies but with a sad ending with age and so forth. Not being preachy but just my opinion. You have penned a great one and a great subject...:).............

[Frieda P]

Would be nice to have both, together in one neat little package forever after, like the fairy tales, no? ;-) Grazie mille Sami......

[Sami Khalil]

Yep. You are right. Both are necessary...You are welcome muchly...:0.................

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

You can put such beauty into sad words…losing aa loved one is never easy, but we can take joy in keeping them alive in our hearts.

[Frieda P]

Thanks Dale, you're too wise for me my friend.

[The Rock And Roll Cowboy(REBEL WITH A CAUSE)]

Yeah right… more like I am twisted enough to call you friend

[Frieda P]

Ha so right, jazz'd you can read 'tween the lines ;-)

[RichGee]

Sometimes Love does not last forever but: I hold it true, whate'er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
Alfred Lord Tennyson
Great work Frieda!

[Frieda P]

Some days I feel that way too, other's I say what the fook? ;-) Thanks Rich.

[RichGee]

I've been on both sides of the fence Frieda, today I Kick Demon Demon A*s!

[Frieda P]

Ha I know you did, and that was some fookin kick too!

[RichGee]

I hear you Frieda...