A mother's anguish...

...just a simple thought

although unsettling ones persist,

from the center of my universe

unfolded of the heart

furled in golden ribbons

for you to behold

lemondrop kisses

apricot nectar'd hugs,

you were the sweet little boy

i bounced upon my knee

reminiscing when life was simpler

before the monkey on your back,

twisted addiction zapping your fortitude

pulsing false breaths of pleasure

can't you see past needle's eye/

deeply cutting into darkly dwelt fragility

at what cost will you defray this pain

tearful of ashes that curb this hook'd bag

you're killing us slowly with your fixation

where did my precious baby boy falter

or was it me?...

Author's Note

Reviews

[luviva]

this is a mother's cry...
and i felt for you even though i have no kids of my own
i understand the pain because i see the little boys waste away
on streets puffing away cigarette smoke as you as 12 year... and i cry a
deep cry. you might feel responsible but the son "baby boy" is at fault too
he had a choice, to remain the baby boy that mommy adored or to waste away to an addict.
but fear not... he will return to you!
time will come when he realises that addiction is no good.
everyone has a turning point and his will come.
nice write.. for all the parents and young boys here on WC.
enjoyed it as i always do

[Frieda P]

Thanks for reading this one luviva, hopefully you're right, before something tragic happens.

[luviva]

he will turn round.. just be receptive when the time comes

[Lyn Anderson]

The pain in this is palpable, and unfortunately, a pain too many of us can relate to. "But for the grace of God go I" mine are little, but this already is in the back of my head. Blame is not with mother, she tried her best. Hopefully he will find her again a safe place to rest.

[Lyn Anderson]

I read it before the request - feel free to send me requests from your older stuff, kind of just been going at it in chronological order.

[Frieda P]

Thanks, I know many can't relate thinking it could never happen to them, neither did we until we were slammed with his reality.

[Cassie]

This simple thought is not just simple, its sad, when children grow up and they make the wrong choices some times we think it is us but you know you have raised them well, it reaches a point where you cant control them but just pray they make the right choices and when they do make wrong choices, that they are able to realize soon. As usual this is a good write

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Cassie, you know mother's always have some kind of guilt going on...especially when their child is suffering.

"You are only as happy as your least happy child" I think Betsy Braun said that, she was right.