A mother's anguish...

A mother's anguish...

A Poem by Frieda P

...just a simple thought
although unsettling ones persist,
from the center of my universe
unfolded of the heart
furled in golden ribbons
for you to behold
lemondrop kisses
apricot nectar'd hugs,
you were the sweet little boy
i bounced upon my knee
reminiscing when life was simpler
before the monkey on your back,
twisted addiction zapping your fortitude
pulsing false breaths of pleasure
can't you see past needle's eye/
deeply cutting into darkly dwelt fragility
at what cost will you defray this pain
tearful of ashes that curb this hook'd bag
you're killing us slowly with your fixation
where did my precious baby boy falter
or was it me?...

© 2014 Frieda P


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Frieda P

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this is a mother's cry...
and i felt for you even though i have no kids of my own
i understand the pain because i see the little boys waste away
on streets puffing away cigarette smoke as you as 12 year... and i cry a
deep cry. you might feel responsible but the son "baby boy" is at fault too
he had a choice, to remain the baby boy that mommy adored or to waste away to an addict.
but fear not... he will return to you!
time will come when he realises that addiction is no good.
everyone has a turning point and his will come.
nice write.. for all the parents and young boys here on WC.
enjoyed it as i always do

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Thanks for reading this one luviva, hopefully you're right, before something tragic happens.
luviva

10 Years Ago

he will turn round.. just be receptive when the time comes



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I have three kids and I pray everyday that they follow the right path,we can talk until we are blue in the face but they do after all have a mind of their own.We hope that our years of loving them would make them capable enough to face this cruel world but we will always wonder if we did'nt do enough.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Exactly Vidya, thanks so much for your kind words.
Vidya Bacchus

10 Years Ago

You are welcome:)
the real love of a mother portrayed very well, very emotional one. good.
I also wrote like this in my ''my days are counted'' ,
all the best

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Thanks sayed muchly appreciated.
SAYED THANGAL

10 Years Ago

very pleasure
It wasn't you Frieda...don't ever think that. !!! Modern society is ruthless, void of meaning for a lot of people. Sometimes the most sensitive people fall victim to this..it's often easier to live deep within ones self than to face the falseness surrounding them.
Maybe he'll at some point realize that love is all there is...and his demon is no replacement for that.
I pray for this to happen.
Bless you...you are kind and sweet.
Scott

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Awh thanks Scott, you'd have to be a mother to understand that rationale, everything is our fault. .. read more
Scott Metro

10 Years Ago

Admiration your way Frieda...you are a strong woman.
S.
Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Much appreciated Scott, thank you.
Oh, Frieda, the maternal love and heartache in this one reached out to grab me. We can not control what our children do. We raise them with "lemondrop kisses" and "apricot nectar'd hugs", but the truth is, they become adults and they start to make their own decisions...ones we sometimes don't agree with. You gave him the best foundation you could and now it is up to him to travel into the world. Hopefully he will see what he is doing to himself is not wise and he will get control of his addiction, but all you can do is let him know you are there for him if he needs emotional support. Let him know you will always love him. That is what a mother can do....nothing more. Your heartache pierces my soul after reading this one. Lydi**

Posted 10 Years Ago


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Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Thanks so much Lydi, your insightful and supportive words mean a lot to me.
How do you pass on wisdom to people drowned in immediate self-gratification presented by media and all that is around them such that any tiny bit of frustration would send them running to a means of escape?

Posted 10 Years Ago


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Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Good question sweetbind but I think it was more than a tiny bit of frustration that sent him there, .. read more
Rachelle

10 Years Ago

Not a parent's fault when the individual can already make choices.
unfolded of the heart
furled in golden ribbons

you're killing us slowly with your fixation
where did my precious baby boy falter
or was it me?...
wonderful ... keep it up
ahena

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Thanks muchly for reading this one Ahena.
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This is a scary one from you Frieda. The sadness strains your words and the music has a spookiness to it. The last line is striking in the way you asked the question. It leaves me wondering if the child did this on his own or was it by taking after his mother. Incredibly moving.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Scary indeed. The music is from Requiem for a Dream, a movie about addiction, and to be honest, yes,.. read more
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10 Years Ago

Wow, I didn't know that. I was under the impression this was fiction. I'm such a dork. I know people.. read more
Frieda P

10 Years Ago

I wish, most of my stuff comes from reality. Thanks again Lacey.
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This journey from "apricot nectar'd hugs" to "deeply cutting into darkly dwelt fragility" and the end with guilt.... That's exactly what anguish is and you made me feel it very deeply. I still live the times of sweetness with my two boys, always hoping that they won't have to face that darkness alone... I wish all the best for you and your children.

Posted 10 Years Ago


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Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Thanks so much Anabela, I still live that sweetness from my three boys, but sometimes harsh reality .. read more
We bleed for our children. I like the journey and thoughts in the poem. The ending is true.
"where did my precious baby boy falter
or was it me?..."
When our child falter. Make us feel like we did the same. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

Exactly Coyote, thanks so much for your kind words.
As the father of 5 I completely understand where this is coming from.
I guess I have been lucky that they have made some pretty good choices
although I still have a 9year old that has a lot of choices still to make.

We as parents can only do so much as we try to teach our children to be responsible adults
then it is up to them to decide how they want to live (or die sometimes)
and sometimes it breakers our heart.

This is extremely powerful and thought provoking.

Greatly enjoy your writing.
Trace

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Frieda P

10 Years Ago

We're all older than we think. ;-)
Trace

10 Years Ago

I know huh!!
Frieda P

10 Years Ago

I'm still 17 in my head! haha

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If you want to know me, read my poetry, it's all in there. I am a mother of three sons (my finest moments) a sister, a survivor and a little bit crazy. I lost my beloved sister to suicide, so you'll.. more..

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