When my son died, a part of me died with him. I remember being told that I would resent when some well-wisher told me "I know how you feel"...but I didn't. I knew that they were just trying to tell me that they sorrowed along with me. I did resent being told that I ought to go get mental health counseling...what they really meant was that I ought to get drugs to drown my sorrow, and I couldn't do that.
There isn't a day that goes by that I don't ache for my boy, who was only 35 years old, and who left a wife and two kids who loved him....
I know that dark and pensive place, my friend...I know it too well. I won't say "I know how you feel", because those are empty words that don't really mean much. I will say that you are loved...
Posted 11 Years Ago
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11 Years Ago
Achingly sad story Angel, not sure how you keep the faith after all that....and thank you so much my.. read moreAchingly sad story Angel, not sure how you keep the faith after all that....and thank you so much my friend.
11 Years Ago
Darling, it is only my faith that holds me together.
I was never very good at blind faith. And was often admonished as a child for daring to ask how God could be all forgiving, "all you do is ask" and then tell me there are unforgivable sins. There are many inherent inconsistencies I could never reconcile.
take a bath in holy water to be renewed
baptism cleansing protocol for illuion's sins
promises blank contracts to start afresh in virgin white
kneeling in blood soaked with wine, washes away the stains
And yet along the way on my spiritual path faith is all I have to light my way through the darker nights of my soul. Well written Frieda.
Posted 11 Years Ago
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11 Years Ago
Reminded me of myself as a child, I wasn't allowed to ask 'why' after a while, thanks for your insig.. read moreReminded me of myself as a child, I wasn't allowed to ask 'why' after a while, thanks for your insightful review DCT.
...say Amen to be healed whilst nailed to the cross...
There are times when maintaining faith - in God or in people - feels exactly like this. We cling to our faith, certain it will give us strength... and sometimes we lose faith in ourselves because of this. Maybe we aren't meant to climb that mountain, but to stay on our own steady path...
Got me thinking... great job, Frieda.
Posted 11 Years Ago
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11 Years Ago
I think people let us down more often than not Rita, thanks so much for your thoughts here....
If you want to know me, read my poetry, it's all in there. I am a mother of three sons (my finest moments) a sister, a survivor and a little bit crazy. I lost my beloved sister to suicide, so you'll.. more..