Wrecked

The 'I Never Learn Syndrome'

I know we used to dance before you wrecked me

             was a little piece of heaven and a lot of hell

amazing how quickly the fires of forever after dim

          you came inside my head and  burnt my senses

my own crucifixion wasn't satisfying enough

        you hammered in the nails until you drew blood

like a boomerang you hit my heart again

          how many times is enough is enough

I'm broken, you break me yet again

         there were those bolts of clarity

they fizzled out after the raging storm

          bohemian gusts set the temperature

there was no grace except for 

         suns on the horizon as you thought they should be,

worshiping at the altar of your temporal ego 

          when will I learn you loved yourself more than me

Author's Note

Reviews

[Emerald Seas]

A very clever writing, Frieda. Some people need a little more "growing up" to do before they can sustain a mature relationship, others still - never learn to truly love... life it is a paradox at times.
"when will I learn you loved yourself more than me" love the line! Funny story I am trying to put to poetic form. If I can manage it, I will post soon. I tell ya... this past weekend was full of all kinds of stuff coming out of the blue - must be something in the water! :)
Lovely writing - as always!

[Frieda P]

Oh can't wait to read that one! ha...nice to see you back, thought we lost you, water or the moon, it's always nutters, thanks Sera! ;)

[Emerald Seas]

Bat-s**t crazy extended family - nothing better to do than bs about things that don't concern them! Just annoyed me beyond reason for a few days - apology followed, but still just nuts.

The other thing (poem perhaps to follow) ... yeah, too funny! A quarter of a century later... I swear it was "bring up the ancient past" and see what she thinks weekend! Ugh - Nothing on my part, but a quirky bit that I have been chuckling about ever since!

[Frieda P]

Now you've got me really intrigued, this better be good, no pressure though. ;-P

[Emerald Seas]

Oh, I think it's hilarious, but someone was quite serious.

[Frieda P]

Ha those are the best stories, when is this coming to a theater near me? ;-)

[Emerald Seas]

Ha, if I'm brave (because he'll never be on this site) I may actually post the picture(s) he sent me of he and his beautiful bride. hahaha... jeez...

[Frieda P]

Oh my, shaking my head and rolling my eyes, simultaneously, can't wait! Laughing here... ;-P

[MissMellemonroe]

damn, girl you can write. alot of people can relate to this poem because u might think they're grown then comes the missing piece that was hidden from u.best thing i've ever read seen being a new be:0

[Frieda P]

Damn, I love this review, thanks so much for your visit and review & welcome to the cafe.

[Mark]

Love the crucifix reference, the title is superb and the poem begs the question 'Why do I keep allowing this to happen?' I asked myself that for a lot of years. I still don't really have an answer.

[Frieda P]

Yes, why indeed. Thanks Mark....

[Mark]

hey, anytime. I don't charge extra for the psycho-therapy-babble!!! :P

[Frieda P]

Good to know, I'll cancel my next appointment! ;-)

[Mjay55]

I like this poem. I was drawn in by your words my dear...

[Frieda P]

Thank you kindly Mjay, much appreciate the pause on my page.

[ikibala222]

The beginning is a little slow but it certainly finales with gusto!

[Frieda P]

Ah 'gusto' love that word, thanks for your visit and review Stazifer.

[Annabelle Lee]

Sniffle. this was sad. but wonderfully written as always

[Frieda P]

Awh thanks Annabelle, and nice to see you back...

[Annabelle Lee]

Sorry, sports and a summer job keep me pretty busy

[Frieda P]

Busy is good, how you doing?

[Annabelle Lee]

Great! The ups and downs of being a teenager combined with the emotional depth of a literary genius keeps me on my toes hahaha
I'm just kidding, I'm no genius but I enjoy pretending I am

[Frieda P]

Lol, hey as long as you've got that sense of humor intact, you'll be okay!

[Annabelle Lee]

A pretty face comes and goes with age but a sense of humor is FOREVERRRR

[Frieda P]

Ha how'd you get so freakin' smart??? ;-)

[Pete Langley]

I wonder if a lot of relationship breakdown is to do with expectations being too high. How do we adjust to synchronise with another human being? Sorry, Frieda....rambling again. Love your piece. P.

[Frieda P]

I have no clue, I don't think my expectations are absurd, just don't get involved with bad boys or someone prettier than yourself...thanks Pete.

[Leandro Mendez]

wow.. so much pain spilling ink..so much pain here.. well written.

[Frieda P]

Thanks Leandro, always a lovely review from you.

[SteveB]

Nicely done. I could feel the pain. Thank you so much for sharing this one.

[Frieda P]

Thank you for reading me Steve.

[kublakhan27]

I’ll try to say a little more:
Love went on and on
Until it reached an open door –
Then Love Itself
Love Itself was gone.
-LC

I have always had issues with that "better to have lost love than never love at all" adage...I'm more inclined to subscribe to the "ignorance is bliss" adage...but I guess we have to go through these things before we can experience true love...just another one of life's harsh realities...on that front, it's hard for any of us to truly "learn" because we just have to go through the process in order to find the true love to begin with...but don't look to yourself as the one that never learns.

[Frieda P]

Are you trying to make me pass out again? ;-P

[kublakhan27]

Haha Sorry, I haven't learned to quote him at my own risk yet...no pun intended btw, I just noticed what I said ;P

[Frieda P]

Ha who wrote that your alter ego? ;-P Or was it Leonard?

[kublakhan27]

Oh wouldn't I love to channel him for a while...the younger incarnation preferably ;P

[Frieda P]

Ha I'd take either to be quite honest! ;-P

[kublakhan27]

Haha yeah I wouldn't be too fussy about era ;P

[Frieda P]

Hmmm, me either ;-)