Wrecked

The 'I Never Learn Syndrome'

I know we used to dance before you wrecked me

             was a little piece of heaven and a lot of hell

amazing how quickly the fires of forever after dim

          you came inside my head and  burnt my senses

my own crucifixion wasn't satisfying enough

        you hammered in the nails until you drew blood

like a boomerang you hit my heart again

          how many times is enough is enough

I'm broken, you break me yet again

         there were those bolts of clarity

they fizzled out after the raging storm

          bohemian gusts set the temperature

there was no grace except for 

         suns on the horizon as you thought they should be,

worshiping at the altar of your temporal ego 

          when will I learn you loved yourself more than me

Author's Note

Reviews

[Emerald Seas]

A very clever writing, Frieda. Some people need a little more "growing up" to do before they can sustain a mature relationship, others still - never learn to truly love... life it is a paradox at times.
"when will I learn you loved yourself more than me" love the line! Funny story I am trying to put to poetic form. If I can manage it, I will post soon. I tell ya... this past weekend was full of all kinds of stuff coming out of the blue - must be something in the water! :)
Lovely writing - as always!

[Frieda P]

Oh can't wait to read that one! ha...nice to see you back, thought we lost you, water or the moon, it's always nutters, thanks Sera! ;)

[Emerald Seas]

Bat-s**t crazy extended family - nothing better to do than bs about things that don't concern them! Just annoyed me beyond reason for a few days - apology followed, but still just nuts.

The other thing (poem perhaps to follow) ... yeah, too funny! A quarter of a century later... I swear it was "bring up the ancient past" and see what she thinks weekend! Ugh - Nothing on my part, but a quirky bit that I have been chuckling about ever since!

[Frieda P]

Now you've got me really intrigued, this better be good, no pressure though. ;-P

[Emerald Seas]

Oh, I think it's hilarious, but someone was quite serious.

[Frieda P]

Ha those are the best stories, when is this coming to a theater near me? ;-)

[Emerald Seas]

Ha, if I'm brave (because he'll never be on this site) I may actually post the picture(s) he sent me of he and his beautiful bride. hahaha... jeez...

[Frieda P]

Oh my, shaking my head and rolling my eyes, simultaneously, can't wait! Laughing here... ;-P

[s y e]

Ugh, tell me about it! Ha. You don't need to tell me twice, LOL. Some people need to grow up ALOT before the can have a serious, mature relationship!

BUT, some never learn which can mean that they don't give a crap about your feelings and to get 'rid' of you go and make up sick jokes, but then again, that's just my take on it.

A great write that is relatable to a lot of people. (:

Nicely written.

[John A Raju]

lovely write up, good feel, good picturisation of sorrow and pain, however in this dark personalization, i somehow found the lines 'bohemian gusts set the temperature' out of place, dunno why, personal opinion though, enjoyed reading it still, really good work

[Ken Simm.]

None of us ever do. Thankfully. And this describes what happens when we do beautifully.

[Kristin Lee]

such sorrow in these words. Especially the line about loving yourself more than you ever loved me. I can relate to these words. The delicious rapture of a relationship going sour by that very realization. Beautiful write up.

[annie lee]

This is a profound indictment of a toxic relationship. Having grown up in a wildly dysfunctional family, I can certainly relate to the feelings expressed here. I have very little experience with romantic relationships, having married the first man who paid attention to me, and later discovering that he considered me to be a sure bet to make a good living so I was the star to which he hitched his wagon. It has always been difficult for me to understand why some people are cruel simply to be cruel; no motive drives them, no vendetta, no hate, just the wielding of a sharp blade and eagerness to see the blood. Is the person in the poem of this nature, coldly cruel and avid for blood? That is the way it translates for me, and also it seems this toxic relationship is still current. But the fact that "when will I learn you loved yourself more than me" indicates a shift towards self-preservation, I hope.
This is powerful.

[Traci]

Great work as always, a topic everyone can relate to. We have a tendency to say "this one will be different" and the whole cycle starts over again. All relationships must have balance, and finding that is so hard to find these days.

[Frieda P]

Yes, silly us, thanks for your insightful review Traci.

[Tai Ryens]

Until I finished the entirety of the poem, I thought the first line was a sexual slur.. Perhaps it still is.~ Haha

[Frieda P]

One track mind, you. :-) Thanks Tai.

[carol burgess romance]

Filled with pain, rejection and emotion....very well written

[Frieda P]

Thanks Carol.

[DCT ponderings]

I dated one of these in college. I called him the black hole. There was not enough love in the world to fill him up. So I got smart and quit trying. :) Great write.

[Frieda P]

Perfect, the black hole, how apropos! Thanks so much :-)

[DCT ponderings]

No Thank you..... I read this poem and then straight away wrote mine called black hole. It flowed right out. You creatively jogged my memory.

[Frieda P]

Ha wow, I'll have to read it...how great to inspire another poet!

[Onku Ghosh]

Great write!!! I guess we never learn....we get used over and over again yet we can't break the relation and move on in life.I love your style and the choice of words." Like a boomerang you hit my heart again/ how many times is enough is enough.'' -beautiful lines that convey a lot.YOu are a very accomplished poet

[Frieda P]

Thanks for your charming review, muchly appreciated, and no, we never learn, at least i know I never do, that's why I'm the president of the club.

[Onku Ghosh]

President of which club,may i ask ?

[Frieda P]

Oh sorry, somehow I missed this one, the "I Never Learn Club' of course ;-)

[Onku Ghosh]

LOL!!!! stupid of me to ask.