Just Dead

Somewhere in my soul,

 you still reside

you pass through

 in dark of night

a light tingle,

 shiver up the spine

glimpse out the side of my view

i catch a glimmer of you

can't tell if you're smiling or blue

blurry molten grey

 still mists the eye

 i feel you in my bones,

   my heart overflows crimson

are you haunting allusion

or just a delusion...

  do you waft on zephyrs

           like a fluttering butterfly

          or are you just dead? 

Reviews

[redflutterby]

Someone who was very special to me was murdered in September 2011. When I read this it brought him to mind. His sister has told me that she has "seen" him on many occasions over the years.. very much as you describe like seeing something out of the corner of your eye. I think I will share this read with her...

[Frieda P]

Sorry to hear, that's awful. Makes me wonder if that butterfly that fluttered between my brother and I on the church steps was really a message from her on that day...thanks so much A.M. Hope she can relate to it as well.

[KeeD]

That feeling that always resides inside the heart of someone who's lost a person that was very close. This is such an honest, awakening poem.. that brings back all that emotion, pain love loss suffering and hope..be it visions of truth or just delusions.. it's good to still have them around in some way. Great piece Frieda, hugs.

[Dhaye]

It is sad and touching. Losing someone you love is not a tragedy for a day. It would last for a lifetime as long as you are not ready to accept the truth that his time has ended.

Another piece to recall the memoirs of your love one's existence in your mind.

[Corset]

Frieda, this is hauntingly sad and beautiful though as well, and I am so wishing I could bring big brothers back..for you...

[Frieda P]

Very sweet Corset, thanks so much.

[Deron Alexis]

great poem Frieda a contemplation asking questions help even if the answers are impossible to get to just to know that your mind works after loss or you can still feel after being numbed love your writing keep it up

[Frieda P]

Thanks Deron for your thoughts here, muchly appreciated.

[Zahra]

wonderful write.

[Frieda P]

Thanks for reading and the review, much appreciated.

[SARAHD]

I enjoyed :)

[Frieda P]

I'm so glad you did SARAHD, thanks for the visit.

[Angel of Heart's]

A delicate reminder of the fragility of life...soulfully sad and so strong a voice! This is very moving and felt!... it touched my heart so deeply....

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Angel, usually when I write about my sister it's heartfelt, I'm glad you felt that way...

[KAOlmsted]

"i catch of glimmer of you..." perhaps A glimmer of you? And I suppose "allusion" might work, but I wonder if you meant "illusion"? Let me share something with you...in 1989 my Aunt Tammy was murdered, and to this day I have dreams about her in which she comes to me and just sits and shoots the s**t...the dream always ends the same...I ask her, "Aren't you dead?" and *poof* she's gone. My mother (Tammy's sister) died in 2000. In 2004 when Morgan was born, she came to me in the hospital and held her. Clear as day. Just saying. If you are catching glimpses of her, your baby sis is trying to be seen. Love you, lady. Great piece. Know how I know? I'm crying like a baby xD Thanks for that :-p

[Frieda P]

Yes 'a glimmer' no one else caught that, thanks kimmer, an 'allusion' I meant to 'hint'...I can hardly address the rest of this as you've got me crying like a baby all over again. My heart stopped a beat when I read that...I would love to think she's still here with me, thanks so much for giving me that 'glimpse' into you too my dear friend. Love you to pieces!

[KAOlmsted]

You are my whole entire heart. Always my pleasure. Now hand me a tissue.

[Frieda P]

i ordered a gross of cathartic hankies just for moments like these...xx

[KAOlmsted]

;-) I find laughing with tears streaming down my face ever so comforting but the Kid tends to look at me as though I have lost what is left of my mind.

[Frieda P]

As if ;-)

[KAOlmsted]

xD

[Nick.B]

Very dark and emotional poem you managed to create here, love your style...great job

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much for your visit Nick, and great review, much appreciated.