Scribbled Bliss

Childhood sexual abuse is something people close their eyes to and turn their heads away from, not standing up for the innocent. This is my voice giving it a face.

Angst filled pain passed on

           like an old family photo

poignant, yet colored

                in faded hues of misty grey

you threw your life away

             like dirty bath water

               scribbled notes left behind

     nothing to obscure

  

your flight from

          breathing's contentment

    Incomprehensible deafening

              screams of emnity

bad blood injected

          into the veins of naivete

Venom so fierce 

              it'd knock the hell out of Satan

prince of darkness 

               sat behind our door knocking

monster of brute strength

               and alien affections

    no gods interrupted

 this sin against his child

prayers unanswered, 

               only the muffled sounds

of innocence

     being shorn in tiny shreds

common enemy of mine,

 I needed to protect you

I failed to slay the monsters

           on the rise and in my head

you took that leap of faith

        begging death

                    would be it's own reward

peaceful dickens of a way

         to escape

 hell's fire

     you left behind all the scoffing scorn

                 that found it's way back to my front door

                                        taunting songs breathe immortality

                                              for sins of the father

         hiding for eternity and perpetuity

                   in your silent bliss

Author's Note

Many of you will feel uncomfortable reading this, and I hope that's true, being uncomfortable and staying silent are two different things. I have hopes that people won't stay silent on this horrific issue any longer. It devours lives, being ultimately and internally damaging to say the very least.

Reviews

[writing mojo]

you nailed the accursed head on this one, the flow, the dialoged pain set to perfect un-perfect word choice , the ending had me in musty tears, cellar wall fears like closing the door on some many closets, who's moth's feast on the sweat of so, sowed many living in nightmares...great piece

[Frieda P]

Thanks mojo, always an interesting response from you and under the circumstances, you hit the nail on the head with your reply, thanks so much.

[writing mojo]

welcome

[Michael G.]

This is another near flawless piece pleading the case for stopping child abuse. You give a voice to many who don't have one, or don't know how to use their own. Well done.

[Frieda P]

Thanks Michael, it's hard for those who have been abused to find a voice, there's a lot of shame and guilt also threats of harm to other family members etc...if one should even think of talking about it. Much appreciate your support.

[gabrielle]

And the most heartbreaking and most painful part of it...when family members knew about it but they choose to remain silent for fear that it will break the family apart. illogical. isn't it that the brutal act alone has already tear the family apart?
Thank you for giving voice to those who succumbed to silence.

[Frieda P]

It's very destructive to say the least...thanks so much for your response gabrielle.

[James William Dyer]

A little off topic, but "Satan" was only guilty of Pride, he was referred to as the Morning Star, a fallen angel. An angel would never allow such a thing, despite God's Propaganda. I really like the subject matter, the brutality of it, and the way the path of words becomes distorted near the bottom.

[Frieda P]

Interesting, I was actually going to use Lucifer originally. Thanks for reading James.

[Ruth]

It is an uncomfortable read but things like this should be, you are a writer and able to convey such a situation...wrenching but superbly delivered xox

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Poppy, means a lot. xo

[Ruth]

♥

[Baby Ricochet]

Brutal

[Frieda P]

Brutal isn't a strong enough word, thanks Baby.

[MAC]

brilliantly written....as far as the content, always heart breaking to me

[Frieda P]

Thanks for reading Mark.

[C.C. Marx]

Child abuse, whether it be sexual or physical, disgusts me. What do those people think gives them the right to scar and ruin those children emotionallly? That is something they will live with for the rest of there life, and knowing some people who this has happened to, it really messes people up. Amazing piece frieda, I apologize for the rant!!

[Frieda P]

Good question C...and don't apologize, more people need to get their backs up about this, that's the problem in a nutshell. Thanks.

[C.C. Marx]

My pleasuree of course

[Larry Dyson]

this part alone is so very expressive of what I felt..
"Angst filled pain passed on

like an old family photo

poignant, yet colored

in faded hues of misty grey

you threw your life away

like dirty bath water

scribbled notes left behind

nothing to obscure


your flight from

breathing's contentment




Incomprehensible deafening

screams of emnity

bad blood injected

into the veins of naivete"

[Larry Dyson]

Began workin with this in my thirties when I stopped dening it happened to me...When I got a bit of a handle on it .. I began sharing with others what helped me own up and let loose the inner shame and hatred...continue to support brave ones everywhere who begin to heal and deal...our culture in the USA has just begun to allow others to speak of it...openly..please know you may contact me if you need to ask questions of share...I do not ask judgemental questions...ther is no way to blame a child for curiosity gone damning...ever.

[Frieda P]

Ahh, sweet denial, seems you can't live there forever though. I much appreciate your response, and I may take you up on that. Thanks so much.