Peaceful Flutterings

For Lee my baby sis. Gone too soon.

You colored the world

                   with blasts of rainbows

you softened the blow

                  with lovely laughter

  your smile lit up the room

                           like incandescent candlelight

Not a day goes by

                          that you are out of sight

my heart beats

 in the memories of you

echo of remembrances

                       before you took flight

from giggly chubby cheeks

                 to eyes that pierced the soul

you grew before my eyes

                and captured light's essence

Brought a smile

 the whimsy of butterfly flutters

to everyone you touched

 it was enchantment

Divine before your departure,

                  the spirit of an angel even then

         your gossamer wings now unearthly

 and bound for peace

              you took with you every other beat

           of my heart and soul

     I carry you with me in every minute

                of every day with hope

we shall one day reunite

 fluttering harmoniously

 in tranquility

Author's Note

For Lee, there's a big void that can never be filled in your absence, you took a part of my heart with you when you took flight. You called me 'big sis' and I miss hearing that with every fiber of my being, you were, and will always be my 'baby sis'.

Reviews

[Deron Alexis]

wonderful as work usually is probably some background music would have made me cry like a baby really deep writing again accept my condolences from the absolute depth of my heart however deep it may go it sorrows me when you write about her and i feel for you. lost my cousin to "you know what" and regret that i was not there

this was amazing writing well captured well written well done

[Frieda P]

I'm sorry Deron, I know that pain well...thanks for your kind words and support x

[AYVID N]

You did full justice to her memory with this beautiful poem. She must be beautiful where she is now and proud of you.
It's been nine years since my baby sister decided to end it and I relate to this poem totally. But you know...ever since she went...I have lived with a strong gut feeling that they stay around...in some way!
So just keep being strong for her.

[Frieda P]

I'd much rather she was still beautiful here, I hope she found the peace she so desperately sought Divya. I know you feel my pain, we have that unfortunate bond, I hope you're right that they stay around, sometimes I do feel her presence, I'm not sure if that is wishful thinking or what....thanks so much my friend. xo

[Lover Of Words]

This is so amazing beautiful but brought tears to my eyes your words are so felt though this its totally pulling at my own heart strings. You did an amazing job on this one took your real life words and made it feel real for the rest of us... i have a feeling she is looking down at you and saying thats my big sis... She is proud of you as are we all. Taking something so hard as this and making amazing work.. I am very proud of you though i have never met you in person but i feel as though i have because you are a gem in my eyes and im sure everyone elses here.. This is your heart on paper and you did your sister proud and made her come alive on paper... amazing job taking your heart and letting us be apart of it love you

[Frieda P]

Your response touched my heart Kelsey, thanks so much for your kindness dear one. xo

[Lover Of Words]

Your welcome loved one

[Emerald Seas]

Beautiful, Frieda! I lost my oldest brother 5 years ago to cancer. We were not as close as you and your sister, but still a void. I have only brothers. I believe sisters have one of the most unique bonds of love. I can feel your love for Lee in this and your deep sorrow at her loss in your life. Hugs, my friend. You did her proudly in this wonderful tribute.

[Frieda P]

Thanks Sera, any loss is devastating, I think suicide just begs to answer so many unanswered questions that are never laid to rest.

[Claire Twinn]

So beautiful and sad, I hope your writing brings you some solace.

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Claire, it does help to purge some of the feelings, good and bad, much appreciate your kindness.

[C.C. Marx]

Frieda, you have officially melted this girls ice-ecompassed heart, my eyes watered up and everything!! Thank you for sharing such an emotional piece with all of us here, with people who have grown to care about you. You are a strong individual, stronger than anyone who hasn't been in your position could ever know. Beautiful write, just beautiful.

[Frieda P]

I sincerely doubt your heart is ice encompassed C. I genuinely appreciate your lovely words, thanks so much. x

[C.C. Marx]

Always my pleasure

[John Alexander McFadyen]

' you took with you every other beat
of my heart and soul'
This for me is the sadness of Frieda. your sister would not want you thus living your life for death and reunion. So much beauty can be in her momory

[Frieda P]

Thanks John, appreciate your thoughts.

[KurKota]

My friend, what can one say other than this is a beautiful tribute to your sister !
I am confident that she was reading it over your shoulder as you were writing it...and wrapping her wings around you. Allow yourself to feel them.

[Frieda P]

Oh what a lovely thought Kurkota, I thank you kindly for that image.

[KurKota]

You are welcome my dear friend...

[Kaylor Mason]

my condolances

[Frieda P]

thanks Kailor, much appreciated.

[Jack...]

Frieda, this is so intensely beautiful and immensely sad. A loss such as this should never be, never happen. Your words, your heart which I can feel withing the lines of this poem have rained sorrow on me this morning, and not so much for your loss, which I do feel sadness for, but for you.

Though if I may, I am proud of you, you have taken this pain and turned it into something beautiful that you can share with us, a group of strangers who have become your friends. Thank you so much for being you.

[Frieda P]

Thanks so much Jack, you have no idea how much that means to me. I try to keep her spirit and memory alive, it's difficult since no one will speak of her, you know 'suicide' is a taboo subject. To me it's as if she never existed in their minds, although I know they're in pain too. Thanks so much for letting me share my sister with you.

[Jack...]

It is I who should be thanking you. Unfortunately it will be up to you to keep her spirit alive, she is counting on you to do so. I know it is difficult, especially under the circumstances but you love her and miss her and this task has been assigned to you. I too lost someone very close to me, though not to suicide, but to murder? I still don't know, it happened 15 years ago and it has never been solved. Google Patty Vaughn Adkins Texas sometime, she was my best friend.