Magic Gone to Infinity

The loss of my sister is never greater than at this time of year, she was a Christmas fanatic and brought a special magic to the holidays.

There is no comfort to wrap around this loss 

my mind goes to what could have been or was 

concept of suicide is puzzling at best 

the pain searing and everlasting 

It reaches to the depths and breath of your soul 

with no reprieve of understanding  

a reminder an angel's gone from sight 

agonizing in the dust remaining behind 

 

Have you found that peaceful haven 

 you so very desperately sought 

what's left behind is the wreckage 

of lives and people you once loved... 

Nothing fills the void in the heart 

it crevices deeper with time 

resting on the surface a valiant 

effort for self-preservation 

Spending time in reverie and wait  

hoping visions or clarity's obstructed view 

will come to fruition and make sense

emptiness explodes this time of year

There is no true sound belief 

or acknowledgement profound 

of existing energy to enrapture us, 

that  your reasoning brought you  

to a better place of peace beyond  

just the emptiness and conclusion 

with the resolute existence of truth... 

you are gone forevermore to infinity 

Christmas no longer holds that same magic it did when you were with us... 

Merry Christmas little sis xo

Reviews

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

As a widow Frieda I truly understand this pain. Sept 25th is when I feel this way. I don't have the questions of why suicide was committed but I do have the question to the two that killed him of why? It is hard, so very hard. You have done and excellent job writing this.

[Frieda P]

Thank you so much Neva, and I'm sorry for your loss.

[Baby Ricochet]

Beautiful, thank you for posting this.

[Frieda P]

Thank you kind sir.

[InsanityWriter]

I'm sorry for your loss. :( Beautiful tribute.

[Frieda P]

Thanks Insanity, much appreciated.

[KAOlmsted]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing this with us, Frieda.

[Frieda P]

Thanks muchly kimmer.

[C.C. Marx]

Thank you for sharing such an emotional tribute

[Frieda P]

Thank you C.C.

[C.C. Marx]

My pleasure

[DrD]

Homage poetry demands a special skill and you have it. The endearment and pain blend into this work of recognition and longing. I will not say it is a writing to be enjoyed, but it is certainly one deserving to be read and felt.

[Frieda P]

Thanks DrD, means a lot.

[Frieda P]

I think it's more a special pain, actually.

[quinfinn]

my mother passed on Dec 15th, 2007, so....i felt this one to my very core. Godspeed your emotional rescue.... i know how difficult it can be.

[Frieda P]

Thank you so much, seems like it gets worse, whoever said 'time heals all wounds' was out of their minds.

[Lily Mae]

xo that's all I can do.. :/ hits to close to home..xo

[Frieda P]

I don't know Lily, seems we have a common denominator of pain, sorry if you know this...thx xo

[Pax]

very beautiful ms. F...
i feel the heartfelt feelings and friendship...
a very nice tribute!

[Frieda P]

Thanks Pax, much appreciated.

[David Scott]

Thank you for sharing a tender part of your heart with us...

[Frieda P]

Thank you David, it's a part filled with beautiful memoires but also more pain than I thought ever existed. I'd tolerate abuse a hundred times over to get her back.

[David Scott]

I'm very sorry for your experience with this life lesson. I have been to the place where suicied looked like my answere. Your pain shows that it solves nothing. A good knowledge to internalize for future temptations...

[Frieda P]

If it stops one person, I'd be estactic....I totally understand the need for Peace and wanting the pain to stop, but it does transfer that pain exponetially to the survivors.

[David Scott]

A very brave write Frieda! You have blessed many with your honesty here. You never know what good you have done...

[Frieda P]

Thanks David, so kind of you to say...

[LA Lorena]

This is beautiful Frieda. The loss of a loved one is never as painful, the wound never so deep as it is at this time of year.

[Frieda P]

Thanks LA, much appreciated, she would have liked you.