Narcissistic Altruistic

when buying an ideology from your couch

be sure you are able to quote your knowledge confidently

and without really knowing

utilize your social commodities wisely

like your views on poverty, for example

what are we doing if not trying

to hide something offensive, to hate ourselves less,

to be seen as something more; something more wonderful

in front of friends in front of neighbors

like checkout line charity

or that dumb a*s santa with the ringing bell

like a human pop up ad taking from you

merely pennies on the dollar

but more importantly

almost zero seconds on the minute

best of both worlds

what do people really want?

without the heavy lifting, affect a healthy perception of goodness?

yeah... sounds about right

to believe that perception yourself

you give a little

without touching the poor disgusting losers

without really knowing too much more

just enough to seem like so much more

to your neighbor, to yourself

to the "helpless" you feel you are a hero

this is masturbation charity

"helping" from a bubble

we destitution hobbyists

changing absolutely nothing

polluting with bullshit through a shell of an effort

proudly shopping the catastrophe market

for feel good feelings, to inflate your bullshit ego

to hide the shame with a deeper lie, with window dressing

at best, self serving; the narcissist altruistic

at worst, an insidious protector-victim relationship

pitying pre labeled individuals like they were a pack of sick pets

from a safe space we do this with a heart full of bullshit

disempowered and waiting for death - some don't even call them people

just as long as it seems like it helps

we can call it whatever the f**k we want

it's bullshit whatever label we want to put on it

what keeps us awake at night is not the man freezing in the street