Feelings

Sometimes we can't describe our feelings.

Happiness

Calm

Excitement, nervousness, annoyance,

emotions that are absent

in the realm of calmness.

A state of being with a free mind

wandering about endless possibilities of

outcomes, dialogues and answers.

Being able to exclude everything around you;

people, tweets, trains and just about anything.

Focused

Attention that roams around,

until you test yourself

to an endeavour;

abruptly fixated upon an activity.

Nothing hinders your way,

nothing can stop you,

nothing can provoke imbalance.

Excited

The eager to move up and down,

to an invitation to a party.

A chance to sway with others

-dancing with your body-

filling yourself with bliss and joy,

endless longing to smile.

The tense movements necessary

to dwindle down the kid inside you.



Mindlessness

To samba your tango

you have to waltz your disco.

Feeling every inch of your skin

getting in contact with other sweaty skin.

No space but to move your whole body

the way you want,

leaving no space for others

to do nothing.

Exhausted

I’m so tired,

this place makes me.

Sleepy.

It has nothing to do with sleep.

Just the people around, constantly moving

with the music,

with the rhythm.

Best get a drink before the portal

to an another world

drapes on my

eyes.

Closure

Silly

Butterflies in your stomach

but not the bad kind,

the kind that makes you want to

do ridiculous things

that are harmless,

that are fun,

all with meticulosity.

Laughter comes to visit,

spreading little happiness from its basket.

It gives a little extra for you:

Confidence.

Shy

When you feel a noble person

in your presence

you feel small.

Words become a ball of tagnled lteters,

each phrsae coems out at ocne,

so you start again.

If there is a-

When it comes-

Getting gazed at with wonder.

Get a grip,

a grip of the chaos:

I like you.

Embarrassed

Warmth courses through your cheeks

causing red flames to appear everywhere.

They do not hurt,

they do not cause pain

but only to make you feel responsible

for all the things you have not done.

You just want to slither into you cave.

Cave where you feel safe from the flames.

Regretful

Why did I say that?

What’s wrong with me?

Why?

Now I feel self-conscious,

words will leave behind

an abiding stain.

Words that will torment me

until I collapse.

Sadness

Suddenly this defeat.

This rain,

everything goes grey,

flowers go grey,

rainbows go grey

and blue.

Your body is cold

from the absence

where your friends were.

The people who cared,

people who helped.

I have gotten used to the rain,

It has been here for far too long.

I feel empty as the night sky,

but without the stars

and the moon.

Joy has been a habit.

Joy with a touch of sadness

can also be a language,

a language only the broken can truly feel.

Suddenly,

this defeat.

Depression

Unloved

So I found a place

So I found a place to cry

Why does it hurt?

I thought you wanted to break me

You may have gone insane?

So I learned my lesson

So I learned to hide

Why isn’t it ever,

Isn’t it ever real?

I thought you wanted to break me,

You may have gone insane?

So I placed my heart on a silver plate

served it with a fork of gold

all I got was shame and hate

I only wanted to find a person.

Why am I broken to the soul?

I only wanted to find affection

Why do they want to break my heart?



Discouraged

Sometimes we feel discouraged,

sometimes we feel despondent,

sometimes we feel crestfallen.

Too dejected to step outside

to the blue world.

Dispirited to open up

to the grey world.

Pessimism takes over

your realm.

I’m tired of being on the verge,

the verge of exploding into chaos.

Like a caterpillar trying to break free from its pupa

while birds and lizards are waiting for it, waiting for their food to come to them.

Delicious food.

Sleepy

The only thing I want.

Is to sleep,

to sleep

to

sleep.

All these sepulchral tones

nearby.

Big bells singing,

whispering something in my ear,

trying to make sense of these

disorganized resonates.

“Sleeeeeep.”

I think I should lay off,

just for a bit.

Anger

Agitated

When I’ll ever meet myself,

I’d sit on Silence’s table.

Staring into my eyes,

and study my evolved, yet un-evolved me.

I see said self staring into my eyes,

eyes with furiousness,

anger,

antagonizing eyes.

“Don’t eat the food.”

I’d say,

“The food will only make it worse.”

Defensive

Once you’ve been in this game

for far too long,

you start to develop strategies.

A strategy to observe but not to express,

a strategy to keep close but not to share,

a strategy to listen but not to engage.

All just to stay in the game a little bit longer.

The game,

the game of who can stay in there for the longest.

Why?

Why do we have to do this?

Why is the game here?

Because the game makes you feel good,

feel pleasant.

Satisfaction is a card in the game,

you play it when you have no other move.

It says:

Move away from the other players.

Rebellious

Do not advice me,

do not mention that.

I do not enjoy what you report to me.

I want to be in my room,

overlooking what you say.

I find you very adolescent

for the things you say is robust for me.

So desperate to convince love and affection,

I know already,

your persistence in proving your point.

I do not need your interventions. 

Acceptance

Glad

We cannot change yesterday,

it’s already gone; fading away.

We live in the world here today,

Our presence exists, may it be what it is.

Accept what life is, of course in your own way,

set a small goal, just for tomorrow.

Take small steps, just for today,

grow each day, while move forward.

Look back on good things, who cares how small,

appreciate the moments, remember these elements.

You have come this far, who is to stop you?

Then look back on life.

It was really okay.

Relief

The day has come where smiling

is not an errand to attend.

Happiness comes from the heart raw

just for development into something radiant.

Emanating something so powerful,

you could slice a wall of doubt.

A tear;

weighing as thousand droplets.

Each one holding thousand reasons

of why everyone is capable of great elation

and laughter.

Renewed

I went on a vacation

leaving forever, never to return.

Fleeing who I was, afraid of myself.

But today I revisit myself in peace.

Everything is in the past

it is time to take myself back.

I can go back in years in my mind

and still, that changes nothing.

Obscurity can’t surround me anymore

I’ve got hope, that’s enough.

Hello,

my old self.

It is time

to lift the curse.

Happy

Optimistic

The sun,

though will set tonight,

will undeniably rise tomorrow.

Nothing to do but work.

Nothing to eat but food.

Nothing to wear but clothes.

But now,

I find little things in work

that I appreciate.

I find variety of food

that I enjoy.

I find my favourite color

just to wear.

One last stress

Here I am, to reflect on my past.

Trying to figure the bottom of this,

the root seems to be deep.

That won’t help, I need to push further,

further into the void I was blinded by.

The void that clouded my vision

just to cause painful action

making immortal memories

that never will go away.

There it is,

the sun is up,

it’s rising.

Is it gone?

Am I safe?

Has the burden gone astray?

Love

The game is at an end.

All achievements are unlocked.

Multiple modes are unbarred.

But one unfinished business

was ignored:

The final Boss

Play this game with a repaired soul,

an item so rare and valuable

once you lose it, it’s gone forever.

So I tighten the grip

on the controller of conscience.

And I say

“Come at me, Affection.

Give me my worthy love.”

In the end

It was all worth it.

Thankful

Today I’m in gratitude,

Thanking for the times I survived.

When

solutions seemed to be problems,

and problems were constant.

When I was afraid of mornings,

and filled with darkness inside.

When I was 1 part love,

and 3 part fear.

My poor vision.

But today my past is beyond me

and I am a new me.

Today I see deep skies with hopeful eyes.

Author's Note

This is a poem about feelings, constructive criticism and feedback would be greatly appreciated :)

Reviews

[James Aeolus]

Beautiful. It felt really spiritually lifting. I have nothing else to say except, well done.

[Amaya]

Wow I really loved this! Just a little feedback would be to be a little less repetitive at times, unless that was the point and I completely missed that.

[fresnikson]

Thank you for the comment :) Yes, I agree, sometimes it gets a little repetitive, but I intended it. :)