CrazyA Poem by SylviaThe urge is here, and don't know what to do with it Pipes roaring with water, rusted faucet Bedridden, starving, with red meat rotting out of reach Miles of black wire under isolated desert, and while no one was paying attention one spot frayed A single point of disconnect, and there's silence on the other end no matter how loud you scream. Nothing to say, but needing to say it Learning to paint without paint Play the piano with bloodless severed fingers gripped each sweaty palm -- an old amputation How do you keep trying if you don't know what you're trying to do? Eat without a mouth; try to get the noise out without a mouth. It's like everything is so fast it's fuzzy It's like everything is so fast it's standing still It's like nothing is moving, and has never moved, and will never move again Life not keeping pace with itself Nothing moving, nothing making a sound. It gets loud when it's too quiet. I sound crazier than I think I am Unconsciously curating insanity with words, or unconsciously curating sanity in thoughts? I'm crazy, but the boring kind -- amplified, not distorted Inflating the same worry and loneliness and insecurity and misery as everyone else into a misshapen caricature All the same but louder, too loud, always too loud all the time until I go deaf and it's too quiet again.
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Added on December 29, 2018Last Updated on December 29, 2018 Tags: bipolar, mental illness, free verse Author
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