Dear Mom,A Poem by Alejandra Marie(A Spoken Word Poem)Can you hear me? Because I can hear you The words circle around and around in my head like a badly synchronized tune You used to sing when I was young, a careful, melodic sound that slipped off your tongue You sang about life and praise and love and how a child is a mother's gift from up above People see me and say, "Wow, your smile is beautiful. It lights up a room" And maybe that's the reason it's so dark when I'm alone in my room Because the tears you will never see keep me company The hollowed auditorium that holds my weakened heartbeat Also holds the insecurities that wrap around me tightly threatening to never let go So can you hear me? When I'm shouting your name, when I'm being forced to take the blame "You're such a s**t", you say So I guess I'm that too And I shouldn't be surprised since society teaches us that women equals sexualize But that's not the point How can you look me in the eye and say that I've slept with millions of guys When you're never there So even if it was true, you couldn't possibly know why Can you hear me? Is it loud and clear? The emotions that build up inside me And have learned to fear Inadequate, defective, faulty, not good enough That's what I feel every time that I fail to meet the expectations that just seem to appear It's my fault, I know I can't seem to pay off the debt that I owe to you So can you hear me? I see pictures and magazines I look back at myself and no longer like what I see So I go to you, in hope, that you'll tell me it isn't real and the only thing that matters is how you feel about yourself But instead, I get shaming and blaming and hating and I start to believe that the problem is me when in reality, I'm not thinking clearly And I know that I'm one of millions, a blip in mankind But my doubts are very much alive Sometimes I can't shake it And you ask me, "why are you so depressed?" And I want to tell you about the self-hating mess that you've made me into And it's not fun It's never fun when you feel so done Because everything seems against you You tell me I'm too young to feel done
But it's answers like those that tell me negativity has won So can you hear me? My final plea I just want someone who will catch me Because you know that thread is so fine And I know soon it will be my time to fall if I'm not already falling So can you hear me? Because I can hear you The words circle around and around in my head Like a badly synchronized tune © 2017 Alejandra MarieAuthor's Note
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