Life changes, but it always remains

I can be incredibly selfish
without a soul in the world knowing
My anger flares like a rabid dog
instead of the pain I feel showing
So, I smile and nod and always forgive
to allow the "light to shine"
but I still find my dreams afloat
drowning, in the depths there is no divine
Always running and justifying
the ends justify the means
i wanted love, so I gave love
and even in my goodness, I need redeemed
I always arrive at oblivion,
wondering, where do I go?
But separation always finds me
and in the wind my heart flows
I can't stop the seas that fall, bursting forth from my eyes to earth
I keep changing and transmuting
surrendering to the old, for rebirth
and on the blackest of days,
hoping my soul will experience consciousness
but hiding my anger, my pain and my illness,
i'm an invisible face in the crowd, called anonymous