Aftermath

It's the way I still have triggers, nightmares and PTSD from the trauma of losing the person I feared losing most, and how the person i thought I could trust the most is the root of all my pain

I still dream about you
and the way you made me feel
and even then sometimes I miss you
so the thick skin I formed starts to peel
sure, I've met someone else
But you were apart of my life
I know you never meant to hurt me
to rip my heart out with a blade less knife
It's funny, you know..
how much I think of you still
I'm working after 2 years
to get the hole in my heart filled
she took everything I had,
without any cares
and when I think I'm over it
it's all ripped away again in my nightmares
Inevitably, I'll be fighting forever,
Trying to silence the demons at my core
While you're happy living,
and loving every inch of that f*****g w***e
And because I can't help the way I feel
I'll always feel at guilt,
Because I've lose you, you're gone
I've let slip away the life that we built...