Escape the Contradiction

A poem about the struggles ofduality

No matter where I am
escape will never be
no matter how I fight and claw
I will never be free of me
no matter how hard I try
to shut out all the thoughts
I still see every sing thing
every scar, and every flaw
no matter how loud I scream
I still can't get it out
NO matter how quiet I try to stay
there is still an urge to shout,
 no matter the distance I run
I'm never far enough away
no matter the words i use
I still don't know what to say
these feelings in my head, they swirl
leaving me numb and blind...
I feel my way though the dark
hoping for the light to shine
this world, it can be cruel,
like the storm so full of rage
I want to fix it somewhere, somehow
But I'm the only one who needs to change,
But how and when? where do I start?
I'll never understand..
do I feel, do I love? Do I even have a heart?
sometimes I hate everything,
and sometimes I pretend...
because all in all this is my life,
a constant struggle until the end...