growing up sucks

ye ye

Everything around me is changing

I can’t control it

Expectations hide

Temptations rise

My ego is my demise

Most my friendships I despise

Not for the fact they annoy me

For the fact I feel they are better than me

They don’t strictly listen to their pride

They don’t fear their desires

They freely be themselves

And most of all

They never hit that wall

 They never have had that shame

That gave my body all that pain

Not the shame that brought me insane

Their mistakes are small

Mine are not

I’m the kid who stole and stole

Let my family down

Just for what

Drugs and drugs

Just for what

Pills and pills

Just for what

Deceptions of success

Now that my ways are gone

Being charismatic has walked out the door

I’m scared

Change is scary

I have improved

Yet I’m still evil

That ego can I kill

I try and try

I need too say goodbye

Why oh why

This narcissism must be me

Cus this ego won’t let me free

I try to forget and let me be

I can barely see

The things around me

I know I know

I don’t know I don’t know

Be better be better

Be careless be careless

Be compassionate be compassionate

Be me be me

Let me free

All the things I tell myself

Thinking it’ll change a damn thing

 

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

I am thinking of all the tearaways I knew in my teens. Yes there were a few of them and they did bad stuff, but then they grew up and believe it or not they became model citizens. Growing up does suck, especially if you go down the wrong fork in the road. It sounds from this poem as though this grown up kid is still beating himself up badly over past mistakes. A new leaf is a new leaf. The page has turned. Good write, I enjoyed your lines. Never too late to have a fresh start.

Chris