Sleep and Pain

Sleep, it's an important part of our health to regenerate our bodies. It also helps us internally and externally. It makes us live longer, better, and in my opinion it is good for your mental state of mind. It's the feeling of rejuvenation that gives you that sense of fresh reset. Sleep is also part of anyones daily life schedule to make it to work or school on time while others just love taking naps. However, lack of sleep can bring your inner demons to anyone and sometimes feel physical pain. It can also be a devastating habit depending on what adversity life brings you. I brought this up because there are others out there that sleep to suppress. It could be due to depression, heartache, or controlling withdrawals to avoid a bad addiction. They just want the pain to go away, even just for that few minutes or even hours of sleep. But when sleep is substituted with the negative aspect of life, will your matter of contention make it better? or is it just a temporary fix just like a heroin addict chasing that quick high?

There is this boy or should I say a young man. His name is Ollie. He grew up around an amazing family and friends. He was raised in a religious family but deep down he has an open minded heart. Although he had his ups and downs growing up, he somehow managed to get through his own trials and tribulations every single time.

This man had it all; a decent yet respectable career, his dog whom he loves unconditionally, a house to call his own and plenty of people that loves him very much. I guess you could say that at night he sleeps like a bear in a peaceful hibernation or like an infant that has a pure soul with no evil intentions. There is a time in every young man's life where each being has to make it on his own and separate himself from his nest. That time came.

Ollie has fled and moved out of his comfort zone. You see the part of moving on to an unknown had made him appreciate life much better. He remained humble and has managed to control his negative emotions when situations are presented. However he also feeds on darkness that can't be lit up. He uses this dark entity of his to conceal the unexplainable struggle he is going thru but he is also a master of cloaking his combat. It is the only way for him to cope. He still tries to be a good person to everyone and he does his best to see the goodness of every individual which can also be a huge disadvantage and made him blind to see the unexpected.

One sunny day something has happened to him. It's that something that gave him the natural high of life and pure emotions of love. Little did he know that this heartfelt encounter will cause him undeniable pain in the long run. Her name is Kate. She showed up, introduced herself and eventually she became Ollie's life for that moment. She was charismatic, beautiful and kind hearted. Ollie was electrified. He felt prodigious and sees this girl as an infinite light that overcomes his darkness. Days, weeks, and months has passed and these two were inseparable like Batman and Robin. But just like in the comics, Robin will eventually leave to find himself on his own. Although she has not left him at all and the friendship has remained stronger than blood; the love Ollie was seeing in her was unrequited. This is where the sleepless nights and pain started emerging.

Kate has no idea, not a clue or whatsoever. It was never her fault to make Ollie feel this way. The feeling of falling in love more and more without any reciprocation. It is clear that this receptivity he feels or sees are both very much unrequited and painful. He feels the joy and convulsion at the same time whenever she is around him. He can't let go. He just doesn't know how. Sleepless nights, punctuality turn into tardiness and loosing apart of him was dematerializing. Even when there was a sufficient amount of sleep, his mind and conscious are cognizant which has become a restless dilemma.

Why can't Ollie let go? Why does he care so much for her knowing he will just be a sidekick, a friend, or just a comrade. He has no idea. Emotions are tricky, life can be unfair and love is also pain. You combine logic and emotions and the results can be pandemonium. He knows this. He has studied every logic behind what's going on and nothing adds up but the blossoming love and pain for her.

Ollie need some good sleep. Maybe a certain medicine that will cure this unsettling torment. We go through pain to learn the lessons of life. It's not always good but we go through it either way. Ollie just have to be strong enough to take over this darkness. Perception is his key. Eventhough darkness is what drives him to be better, he strongly believes that there has always been consequences tampering with the negatives. He really wants to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The light that can set him free. He just want everything to reset. Ollie just need to focus on the good and be logical about the situation. Then maybe in time the love will neutralize, the pain will fade and hopefully a good night of sleep will finally happen. If only she knew.. Goodnight....