The Truth

I have exposed to you only 

fragments of the truth

for fear of rejection

I've been telling you lies 

from our very conception

I've had to keep track

of these lies that I've told

Did't want to slip up

Don't want to let them unfold

Don't want to get tripped up

from these lies that I've spun

but those words that I've said

just rolled off my tongue 

I've held onto these secrets

kept them locked up inside

I must let them out

Must swallow my pride

I'm afraid that you'll leave me 

once that you know

I'm afraid that in the future you'll no longer believe me 

I'm afraid that you'll decide to just get up and go

I'm desperately wanting to bring about change

All of my words I wish I could exchange

I'm fully aware that I'm deceiving you 

How I long to be able to tell you the truth

So now it's time for me to ask for forgiveness

I beg you to stay

while I attempt to clean all my messes

But if you should leave 

I'll quite understand why

I just can't continue 

to live with these lies

Reviews

[Cory Barrett]

I had a relationship that was very much like this. I actually went to consoling for all of the lying that i did. And then i realized on day that she didn't love me at all, she could only love what I was pretending to be. She fell in love with the smoke, and my fire was dwindling.

[audrie]

the desire for love has the ability to make us believe in falsities and sometimes we lie so much that we start believing our own lies. . . thanks for the review

[Matching Socks]

Ooohh, the truth shall set you free but might shatter your world.
Great write here. Excellent piece of truth.

[audrie]

Thanks Ance - your reviews are always enjoyed!

[Kieta!]

So true... lies are very messy little things and seem to require more lies in order to conceal the ones already said... the truth is better! Great job!

[audrie]

yes, it's easy to let them get out of hand and then you're screwed!

[anne]

A very good one......its a brave decision to not live with lies afterall truth wins in long run.......beautiful....

[audrie]

Yes, only turmoil can come from telling lies - thanks for the comment = ]

[A. Amos]

Honest, raw and direct...thanks for sharing your feelings!

[audrie]

Thanks for taking the time to read this! = ]

[A. Amos]

You're most welcome my dear

[Coyote Poetry]

"So now it's time for me to ask for forgiveness
I beg you to stay
while I attempt to clean all my messes"
A powerful poem with a good message. I believe all of us have things dead and bury. I don't believe we can share all things. Human nature is greed and jealousy. I could feel the concern in the poem for actions done. Real love should forgive all. Thank you for the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[audrie]

some lies are meant to deceive, some to protect from hurt and some to help others. Unfortunately, mine were all deceiving and told only to protect myself. It took me a long time to learn how to not be a liar, but I have learned my lesson and realized the hurt that I have caused. Thanks for your thoughtful review!

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome. We learn by living and making mistakes.

[Avinash]

A very honest and candid work. Respectful and brave....hope it helps you clear your mind.

[audrie]

Yes, deceiving people is part of my distant past and I realize that it was a s****y thing to do. Thanks for the review!

[priya]

This poem is so beautiful and so true. I can feel each and every word. You are a very powerful poetess. :)

[audrie]

Awww - so nice of you to say! thanks = ]

[priya]

My pleasure Audrie.. ^_^

[Swaroop Manikandan]

ah! it pains as I read this...

[audrie]

It was a necessary write to acknowledge my past mistakes. . . thanks for reading this = ]

[jacob erin-cilberto]

speaker has a good idea here...the honesty is the best...regardless of consequences...
first and foremost, we need to be able to live with ourselves...

really felt this one.

jacob

[audrie]

In this particular relationship it was exhausting to try and keep track of my lies. My future relationships should be a lot more honest. I mentioned to someone already that there ar the type of lies that deceive and the kind that help. . . I need to live by these rules. thanks for the review Jacob