Led to not Believe

The anger quells within my veins.

Blood boils hot like a burning fire.

When will there be a day to give into desire.

Chase the moon and not get burned by the on coming sun.

The day passes to night and I am alone again

With nothing but my mind.

That isn't even a comforting place,

When all I can conjure is your smiling face.

It wasn't the place, or my face that made you lose trust.

It was all mistake, that led to hate.

You thought I lied,

But your source was wrong.

A misinterpretation of words.

Something found common now a days.

Believe me when I tried to tell you the truth,

Don't walk away with pain in your eyes.

Why must I pay for others mistakes.

It started with my brother leaving,

Ended with my sister walking out the door.

I stayed strong and held on,

Thinking and believing one day I would be happy.

But I hold the mask of a clown, smiling like I have no care.

But my insides are torn and bleeding,

Like the rushing waters of the falls.

You took the information like a knife,

Trying to take your life.

I was only there, because I cared.

I was only around, because I believed,

Believed that you were it,

My ticket to happiness.

But now, I look and I was deceived.

You didn't trust me enough,

To not believe in words I never said.

Your trust lies with her, and I'm stuck in the dirt.

I sucks you couldn't see what was right in front of you.

Just the plain old me, that you used to see.

Used to hang around and believe.

But I guess things were never meant to be.