Regret

A Poem by Flylikethesun

Have you ever messed up with the one you truly like?

Here we are, against a wall, trapped by words we didn't mean at all.
Fat, ugly, stupid. Words we said to shadows, to prevent them from coming out.
They hid in their shell, that everyone knew, while I hid in mine, a much less obvious shell.
I wasn't always like this, you know.
Now I feel like it's give and take.
You give me more than I deserve.
I guess I never even noticed, since I was busy taking even more; It's not fair.

I love you.
I hid behind hateful glares and meaningless stares, behind evil smiles and taunting smirks, waiting for this feeling to go away, but it hasn't.
And you used to feel the same.
But even kind people like you have their limits.
I took everything, and left you alone with trust issues and a broken heart.
I didn't mean it, I honestly didn't.
You loved me so much that you willingly gave me everything, and i was a fool.
I didn't trust it, and I was a fool. I've been in your shoes before, my love.
I know how it feels to have your heart shattered beyond repair.
That's why I didn't trust it. And that's why, "the fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in ourselves, that we are underlings."
It's true. I screwed everything up. Fate would've been for me to trust, but I didn't, and so I find the faults in myself, once again. Now am I forgiven?