SisterA Poem by flowerbaby18A part of a small series I'm working on in which I write about various people in my life.Looking at my sister is like looking in a fun house mirror, I see myself in the reflection, Just a little less clear. We have the same glasses, Mine are just a bit more dramatic. The same eye shape, With different blues and variations of green hues. The same untameable locks, With different curl patterns. I was born five years after her, And I find myself often thanking the stars That I wasn't first, Because I don't know if I could make it through the world without her. See, our mother is a flake, Our father a hustler. For them, Something always came up, And rose above the needs Of their daughters. Whether it be the boyfriends, or the drugs, It was always just us. Even when placed in different circumstances, And given new chances, We protected each other. Fear of our surrogate family Deciding we are more burden Than gift, We stayed on guard. Even more than eight years later, We still view this family from the outside. At Christmas dinners feeling as though We might as well sit outside. And it's not their fault, This family has claimed us as their own, But they have no clue the battles we faced. Sleepless nights in shelters That felt more like group homes For kids without contact With their mothers and fathers. Extended bath times While mommy was in the next room Lighting up the meth pipe with Only god knows who. Pretending not to be hungry Until my sister can steal some food. Up until eight years old This was all I knew. I became afraid of every man Who raised their voice, And I felt bad, Because when it come to raising me, My sister had no choice. Traded her childhood for my own, And without a stable house, She was my home. Sheltered me from types of abuse, Types as in plural, As in what we had seen and What people had done, As in when it comes to marks on our skin, There have been more than one. And despite all this, She grew, Graduated college with a degree To help kids in the same situation too. She taught me not to apologize For the circumstances of my life. Taught me to aspire to be more Than just a statistic. That a bad start Doesn't have to make me sadistic. And despite the makeshift family That I have, She is more than blood, This girl is my other half.
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