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A scream poem about reminiscing.

REMEMBER WHEN WE FIRST STARTED AND YOU CHANGED YOUR LAST NAME TO MINE? REMEMBER WHEN I FOUND OUT AND WE LAUGHED AND I SAID IT WAS CUTE AND WE LAUGHED AND LAUGHED BUT YOU KEPT IT LIKE THAT YOU KEPT YOUR INITIALS MK INSTEAD OF MS AND I SECRETLY LOVED THAT YOU KNOW I LOVED THAT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT ME LIKE THAT

AND THEN OUR NEXT STEP WAS BABIES BUT BABIES CAME AFTER OUR FIRST FIGHT WHICH WAS A BIG F*****G DEAL AND IT WAS MY FIRST TIME WITH A GIRL AND YOUR FIRST TIME WITH SOMEONE WHO REALLY LOVED YOU SO WHO'S LAST NAME WOULD THE BABIES TAKE REMEMBER I LOVED YOUR LAST NAME MORE THAN ANYTHING AND YOU UNDERSTOOD THAT AT THE TIME I DIDN'T WANT MY NAME TO KEEP GOING AND I LOVED YOU FOR THAT I LOVED YOU FOR SO MUCH REMEMBER WHEN MY MOM AND I FOUGHT ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE TOO SHAMEFUL TO SAY ALOUD AND I TOLD YOU THAT I'D BEEN SCREAMING SO LOUD MY THROAT WAS BLEEDING AND WHEN I DISAPPEARED YOU PANICKED REMEMBER THAT BECAUSE I CRIED WHEN I FOUND OUT YOU'D BEEN WORRIED ABOUT ME

I LOVED YOU FOR THAT TIME YOU CELEBRATED OUR ONE MONTH THE WHOLE DAY AND SHOWERED ME WITH LOVE AND NICKNAMES AND I LOVED YOU FOR THAT TIME YOU DIDN'T LAUGH WHEN I SAID STUPID THINGS I LOVED YOU FOR THOSE TIMES YOU DIDN'T BACK AWAY WHEN YOU LEARNED MY WEIGHT AND WHAT MY SKIN LOOKED LIKE UNCOVERED I LOVED YOU FOR THOSE TIMES YOU WHISPERED THAT YOU LOVED ME WHEN YOU THOUGHT I COULDN'T HEAR I LOVED YOU FOR THOSE TIMES YOU STAYED WITH ME EVEN WHEN I FELL ASLEEP

I LOVED YOU FOR THAT TIME YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED HER I LOVED YOU FOR THAT TIME YOU CRIED TO ME ABOUT HER I LOVED YOU THAT TIME YOU TOLD ME YOU LIED ABOUT NEEDING ME I LOVED YOU EVERY TIME YOU F*****G LEFT AND NOW LOOK WHERE I AM. LOOK WHERE YOU ARE. I LOVE YOU THIS TIME.