Confessions.

Confessions.

A Poem by floraleverything
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This is internal dialogue about my feelings, what I fear could happen if I express them, and the process of trying to make my decision. Of course it's in my usual chaotic personal style.

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I want to tell you.
I could tell you.
It wouldn't take long.
Just a few little words.
I want you to know.

But I don’t want you to know.
I don’t want to take the risk.

There are only two responses
That my anxious mind
Can formulate and believe:
The first is the cliché
Of a happily ever after
That never ever happens
Outside of Hollywood.
The second is the
Much more cynical scenario 
Of failing,
And rejection.
Of losing you.

Yes.
There probably is
Some sort of safe middle ground.
But with my mind
Stained with such strong feelings,
I can hardly accept that.
To me,
The outcome could only be
The highest high or the lowest low.

This poem molds
My chaotic thoughts
Into something more palatable 
Than anything I could try
To express aloud.

The only thing left to contemplate
Is telling you through 
This jumble of perceptive words,
Or letting them rot within me.

© 2015 floraleverything


Author's Note

floraleverything
Tear my one-sitting-messy-personal-emotional-unedited-raw free verse apart :) If you like it, check out my other stuff!

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I dont think ive ever been one of those ppl that exist in between the extremes, has caused me mischief to be sure but i think i'd rather know the peaks of high/low simply in order to appreciate the nirvana days.. also like the layout, well structured and easy on the eye... *5th line of 1st stanza.. might have meant to put "to" in the sentence? .. cheers.

Posted 9 Years Ago


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floraleverything

9 Years Ago

Hahah wow thanks! There is definitely supposed to be a 'to' in there somewhere



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I dont think ive ever been one of those ppl that exist in between the extremes, has caused me mischief to be sure but i think i'd rather know the peaks of high/low simply in order to appreciate the nirvana days.. also like the layout, well structured and easy on the eye... *5th line of 1st stanza.. might have meant to put "to" in the sentence? .. cheers.

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

floraleverything

9 Years Ago

Hahah wow thanks! There is definitely supposed to be a 'to' in there somewhere
sometimes i think that the best way of letting things out is by writing down our most deep dark confusing feelings; fear, worry, depression. The more confusing they are the more original they seem, raw and not like an empty piece written to perfection.

this is honest and heartfelt. nice write.

Posted 9 Years Ago


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floraleverything

9 Years Ago

I agree completely! Thanks for the review Sonnie!
sonnie ibadah

9 Years Ago

you're welcome
Loved the line "stained with such string feelings". Love that.. I hear the conflict in you....

Posted 9 Years Ago


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floraleverything

9 Years Ago

Thanks Jen! Always love hearing from you :)
"But with my mind
Stained with such strong feelings," Love that line, actually the entire piece, but I believe that is my favorite. Tell him, tell him, if he doesn't feel the same then, "The outcome could only be
The highest high or the lowest low," at least you acknowledge this and are thus prepared. GO FOR IT. Well written very emotional, I could feel them.


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floraleverything

9 Years Ago

Hahaha thanks B! I just might!

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